I did sexual things with a virgin guy before and to be honest (I was a virgin myself) I found it really hard to be impressed. The stuff on TV and movies was really abstract to me. We broke up though, the jealous obsessive type he was, and the second guy I was ever sexual with ended up being the one that ran off with my virginity.
Well he didn't really run off because now we're engaged.
Even if I agree that I'm way young, I'm quite confident in staying with him. If we're ever in an arguement, having a rough time, we just talk it out and everything is fine. The most I fear is losing any passion sexually, though I'm very confident we'll get through those obstacles too.
Besides, if my mother wasn't such a slut herself (depression, father issues, abandonment issues, and family issues; she has her reasons but I can't stand it anyways) I probably wouldn't be so reserved about myself. On top of that she can't keep a stable relationship for the life of her.
I guess I'm trying my hardest to not be like her.
It makes my soon-to-be mother-in-law super paranoid though. She's really worried that I'm going to break her baby boy's heart I don't blame her. She likes me and we get along great, but if I was in her positon I'd feel exactly the same. Especially since I come from a very broken and unhealthy family
I can only wait to prove myself. It's probably a big life goal or something. Aside from that I really really really love my fiance. Very seriously.