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Thank you so much, KimiDoll! I’m glad you liked it. Riki (kind of) behaves for one day here. I don’t expect this will continue, and neither should Iason, but he wants it so much he’s forgetting, hence the forward thinking. Also, Iason thinks enjoying what Riki feels like, and Riki himself are two seperate prospects, and that he can keep them comparmentalised, but he can’t. That’s going to come as quite a surprise to him, even if he doesn’t realise it until the very end. And, yes… Riki really didn’t want to hear that. What an utterly awful thing, even to think about. Poor Riki. I don’t doubt that psychologically, he’s going to find a way to survive what Iason wants from him, but he’s never going to give up. I’m glad you like those little mentions of the differences between machine and human, especially from Iason’s pov. Also glad you like the psychology. I wonder how Iason will deal with himself, when he realises he’s being driven by more than logic? Btw, welcome to AFF – I’m so glad you came to follow the story here

*sighs* *hugs CL too* I think I’m going to stick to fanfiction.

Damn…. :/ *hugs Bronx* *hugs tcr* *hugs everyone in the world except for Jeremy Hunt and the orange thing* And now I’m off to bed for a bit.

Oh, I really wouldn’t worry. Just as in RL, the people whose good opinion you’re worried about are far too busy deleting and editing their own forum posts while worrying what you think… I guarantee it *g*

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*crosses fingers* *crosses toes* *eventually ties self in knots and fall off of chair* … thud!

I’m a writer, and so wasting time comes with the hobby, but the time I’ve spent reading your stories was never wasted. For the record, for me Backdoor Politics, the whole Kamal/Zijad thing was one of those perfect things… I’ll remember it forever. I’m only sorry it had to end.

Hi Silvya, and thank you! Indeed, Iason has no idea what is happening to him. I wonder, if he did, would he try to stop it? If he knew his fate? I don’t think so… I think he’s already too far gone. He’s already addicted to how Riki makes him feel, whether Riki means to do it or not. I’m glad you enjoyed the chapter!

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Donald Trump… Get in the effing sea!

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Thank you, ILoveDexter! Poor Riki… he’s in for it now. One of those tags is going to come into play in the next chapter. Glad you’re enjoying it!

Yes! Yes! It happens to me! *throws a comradely arm around Noumena* Come with me, friend! We shall be the founding members of the “Watch Out” forum group.You’re quite safe with me, I promise… ignore what I said on the other topic. Really… More seriously, I am guessing that some odd entry in a table somewhere that describes our profile is slightly corrupted. The solution works. I haven’t noticed any other words doing this, and I’ve had this trouble for months. It’s not worth the hassle of finding the bug out. We’re obviously special, lol. ETA: You will also find it happens in PMs and status updates.

Yep. Welcome to fanfiction *g* It’s as natural as breathing. Really. Someone who has been through shit with you is an even more eligible candidate. Harsh situations create bonding. The same way it happens in life. Have you ever had a workplace romance? If you haven’t, were you ever tempted? What about friends… have you ever just got it together with a friend to see what would happen? Did you carry it on into a FWB situation? Sorry – I know these are personal questions, I don’t expect you to answer them except to yourself. The point is, do you ever look back on some affair or other and wonder what possessed you? Regardles of whether alcohol was involved, the answer is almost always proximity – that’s what possessed you. If you leave two people alone together for long enough… it’s inevitable. The same is true of characters. They’re people, just like us. And especially with friends, if you tend to be quite tactile with them, sometimes sex doesn’t have lots of rings around it and warning bells, it just happens.

Thank you, Bronx! Haha, well that little bit of snark from Riki about them all looking alike did provoke a response from Iason in the moment, and he hasn’t forgotten it. I don’t think he forgets anything where Riki is concerned. Oh, it’s true, I suppose, that the rule of Jupiter and her androids could be much more benevolent, and perhaps it is for the citizens of Midas. How else would the population of Amoi remain so docile? Given our own history, I don’t think a warning like Ceres would be quite enough to dispell thoughts of rebellion forever. All forms of government that last for any length of time, last because not all of the people are struggling. Not all of them are unhappy. I suspect Jupiter has worked out the perfect ratio in that sense, to ensure her rule in perpetuity, no matter how miserable life is for the people of Ceres. Iason is quite ruthless, and to be honest that isn’t going to change. Riki says at one point that when Iason saves him at Dana Burn, it’s “...the first and only unselfish thing Iason did...” But what about Riki? He’s no Maglor, but he’s going to have to give somewhere, if he’s to survive this. Psychologically, I can see him fracturing a little as things go forward, perhaps becoming two versions of himself. He’s young enough for his mind to bend like that. He might learn to please Iason, but he’ll never let go of his thoughts of escape. Which matches exactly what happens in canon. I think he’ll deny his moments of surrender even to himself, when they’re over. I’m glad you are enjoying it! It’s great fun to write. As a pov character, Iason is so… kind of clean and unfettered. It’s different.

Thank you so much, dardar1 I’m glad you enjoyed the chapter, and you are welcome!

Chapter Eight

Oh, I agree, reviews are wonderful! When I stop to think about it, I enjoy the process of writing so much and so often that reviews reassure me I’m not being merely self-indulgent. Even though, truth be told, I’d be quite happy to be self-indulgent. But when someone wants to know what happens next, or discusses the story with others, it’s a great feeling. But, I think I’ve said before my favourite reviews are those where I get to see the reader’s reaction, and they tell me how reading made them feel. Maybe it’s silly, but especially the darker fiction I’ve written seems to have a life of its own away from my keyboard. I’ve had reviews (and private emails) for some of my work that make me realise I’ve left an impression on someone forever, and that feels better than good. It feels like the creative process really worked in that instance, for that one person, and it’s bigger than me. Those reviews aren’t left for me, they’re left for the story. If I ever made you frightened, or made you cry. If I broke your heart, or healed it. If I made you laugh, or even take yourself off in private… these are things that have no price. They mean that my stories will probably outlive me, obscure as they are. What happened once will happen again and again. I couldn’t ask for more than that. In these times, creative writing seems more important than ever, especially in a community like this one, where it isn’t done for monetary gain. Maybe it’s just that I’m getting on, but more and more people seem to delight in showing others how ugly their soul is these days. Everyone seems determined not to care about anything or anyone. I don’t need to point at those people. You all know who they are. Even the darkest things you write are never ugly. They might be frightening, monstrous, brutal, violent and painful, but they aren’t ugly like that. They are all part of the same thing, after all. If you can make someone feel something, anything, you’re a success. No matter how many (or how few) reviews you recieve. Like others have said, I’m quite introverted too. I don’t know if that means anything. Certainly, it makes us more inclined to reflection, and I think that is quite important if you want to write well.

Chapter Twenty-one

Oh, surely not…*g* Erotic fiction is a challenge in its own right, fanfiction or original. I’ve seen too many professional authors stumble over their erotic scenes to doubt it. You can almost see the cringe they had while they were writing. Erotica demands a lot from a writer, and you can’t be afraid of exposure. I think you have to put a lot of yourself into it for the characters’ sake, and draw on all of your experience (sexual or otherwise), without being self-conscious in the slightest. As if you were taking your experience and lending it to them without conditions. If there is embarrassment, self-consciousness or giggling, then that had better be coming from the characters, not yourself. You don’t even need to be vastly experienced to do this, since any gaps can be bridged via deductive leaps, but you must do it. Character and sexual writing are all tied up together. If you want to write good erotica, as opposed to generic porn, you need to make the characters drives and motivations as much a part of the sex as the physical act itself. Why do they want it? How long have they wanted it for? How much (or how little) does it mean to them? The easiest way to describe what I mean is to think in terms of RL. Say, if we have a sexual encounter, we don’t draw solid lines around it and section it off from the rest of our life forever. Nor can we, because depending on the circumstances, there may be consequences to face. The same is true of fictional characters. Sometimes, sex just happens. It’s natural. It happens to you, just the same as it will happen to them. To be brutally honest here, I often find the lack of sex drive in characters off-putting in a show. The lines around what is acceptable sexual tension and what they refuse to write/produce/show often makes the characters and their world seem stilted and grey to me.The world is not sterile. If the whole human race danced around each other endlessly like that, we’d never reproduce. As much as I still resent RT Davies for killing my best man off (sniffles), at least he’s never shied away as a writer from creating fully formed characters, complete with normal sex lives/drives. Hell, that he does create such great characters is one of the reasons I’m so annoyed at their sudden death. Once you’ve thought about all those things, then you can consider the technicalities of writing sexually (tension, pacing, rhythm, word choice and so forth). And, if you’re a woman writing m/m slash, that’s a whole other can of worms to pick through and research to be done. Although I do think that if you’ve done the earlier groundwork, as above, then you can still be very convincing, even if you don’t know exactly how the male orgasm feels.

One more thing to thank fanfiction for, because you know how much I love your novels Yes! I knew it would work… *hides away the tube of superglue and makes evil plan for elveses* I have researched some very strange and diverse things for fanfiction. My search history is terrible, and probably makes me look like some kind of serial killer.

I just think you have hit a nail squarely on the head here. Fanfiction is a realm where we can all go on journeys and set off on flights of fancy. It’s a world that has no borders and no limits. Frankly, those of us who are looking for escapism find the ultimate freedom in fanfiction. We can be anyone, do anything we wish. When you play in someone else’s world, you change it just by being there. You could consider each fanfiction a paralell dimension of the original content, kind of like endless copies of a world in minecraft that is shaped and worked on until it becomes something different to all around it. Yes! I have yet to watch your video… I have to take the dogs to the vets to have their claws cut (oh, that sounds so simple, doesn’t it? – looks dubiously at dogs), but I will definitely take a look when I get back in.