I'm 55 with children and grandchildren, make a good amount of money, enjoy my work, am well respected...so life is good - and it totally sucked when I was your age.
Please don't give up hope - take a long term look on life. I've been married for 30 years, and there have been some downs, but I treat them as bumps in the road.
I wrote my story based on events in my life, but the story comes out much better than real life. I got the girl, at least for awhile. I've already written the last scene, where I say goodbye to that girl and take my place beside the woman I would marry, and realize "I am blessed."
I graduated high school without having ever kissed a girl. Unlike the story, I graduated college while still a virgin. My father constantly berated me for not being good enough. My parents divorced and I was torn trying to keep both of them happy with me. When I was 23 and not yet out of college my father threatened to throw me out unless I got a job. Crushed, I went to the house of my girlfriend of three months (the longest lasting of my life) for her to tell me she didn't want to see me anymore. But I survived.
I got a job flipping burgers, even if I had to ride my bicycle through the snow after wrecking my car. Four months later, after trying to date someone new, I went back to the first girl, took her out for Valentine's Day, and a year and a half later married her. (That was the only girl I ever dumped. She worked in the same restaurant, and just despised that I came in to the place with someone else, especially when that someone else had a ring and then was pregnant.)
I suffered so much pain, but I endured. I have to say how I met my wife. Absolutely true. I can't put in my story because so many people know. One day I went to my car. After not having even turned on the CB radio for over a year, a voice said, "Turn on the radio and see who's on." I knew it was not my voice that resides in my head. I looked around, saw nothing, but said out loud, "OK".
I was fascinated by the woman's voice I heard on the radio, and kept trying to break in to get her handle. Eventually she gave her location and I drove over to see the car, driven by her friend, pass by. I told them on the radio that I was following, but after a few red lights lost them until she said, "We're down here, where are you?" In two weeks it will be thirty-three years since that day. I thank God for leading me to her, and for her leading me to God.