WillowDarkling

Hey, guys. Once again I grovel and beg your forgiveness for being so late in posting. But *ta-ra-tata* I have an excuse!!! I'm really sorry, this chapter just didn't want to come out, and much less to be posted. I had no motivation to write in the past week and a half, and for that I truly am sorry. I guess planning a wedding in ten weeks is a little crazy, and draining, especially when both parties have jobs. But, hey, Chapter 34 is up now, and I've got some reviews to thank for. So thank you very much, Kylee, Ayouka and Womo. I really enjoyed reading your reviews and hope you forgive me. It's like 2 a.m. over here now, so I'm going to go to sleep, but I can't wait to hear from you guys. Love you, and good night. Darkling Willow.

Chapter 31. Hey, guys, I know I'm late in posting, but it was a little harder starting work than I anticipated. I guess a year and a half of unemployment does change a thing or two... So, Now chapter 31 is up, and I've already got a couple of reviews. It's so great to hear from you guys again. I'll answer in order.... Tihihi, Sorry? The chapter just would have become way too long if I had kept going, but don't worry, the next chapter will be up soon. I have to admit I'm not quite sure how to take your comment about the "Cliché vampire story", so I'm just going to say thank you very much. As for the story line, I'm most definitely not Lost-ing my way through it. Although the story line isn't like set in concrete, I have a very solid idea where we're headed. I'm sorry, but I've never heard of that movie. Polinues has been growing up in my head for the past thirteen years, so he's 100% home-made original. But now I'm going to have to look that movie up. (edit: I looked it up. I saw that movie on TV earlier this year for the first time.) As for the age gap, I know. There's nine years between my parents, and honestly it doesn't seem to affect them that much. I guess you'll just have read on to find out how it ends. Ayouka!! Oh, baby, you make me squee every time!! I love the fact that I could make you pissed off... sorry, that doesn't sound good... but I still love the fact that you get so emotionally involved in the story. I was really excited to see your reaction to Tisék's demise, and you didn't disappoint. I can actually feel how much you hated him. I'm sorry if I make it hard for you to read, but I've got a sneaking suspicion that you like it... Please, feel free to rant away. I love it. Oh, and the Blood Drop bit... don't forget how important it is for the plot. Remember what it means. *dun, dun, dun,* So, thanks to both of you for your reviews, and I hope you'll enjoy the rest. You rock. EDIT: I've got a couple of more reviews, so I'm just going to edit this post, instead of making a new reply. Yay, Kylee!! ? I feel kind of bad making you and Ayouka so upset, but at the same time I get such an egoboost reading your reviews. So, thank you, thank you, thank you. Ow, it's kind of cute that you have a crush on Amraeen... I do too... a little bit. He's a sweetie. But so broken. You're awesome! And now, a new reader. Class, say hi to Womo. HI, Womo. Oh, wow, thank you so much, Womo. I'm cool with you reading through before you review, just as long as I get to hear from you eventually. Just focus on school, and r&r when you've got the time. I honestly didn't realize that the format was so bad, because I thought I used too much paragraphing. Sorry I made you cry. But it makes me a little giddy to know that I don't totally suck at this. Thank you so much.

Hey guys... Yay!! Chapter 30 is finally up. I just wanted to tell you all, thanks so much for your patience and your kind words in these past few weeks. I'm on the mend now, and I'll even start working on Monday. So, I know this chapter is a little weird, and quite long, but it actually turned out longer than I intended. I hope you don't completely hate it, because it contains a few important bits for the story. And the next chapter should be up by next weekend, and I'm hoping I'll be able to update weekly from now on. So, thanks again guys, and hope you'll enjoy the rest of the story.

Hey guys. Thank you, Ayouka, for those kind words. I'll keep you guys updated about all that, but for now, just enjoy Easter, and eat a bunch of chocolate. I'm trying to not be too sad about granddad passing, I try to remember that now he's in a better place, free of the pain of cancer and he's back with my grandmother, who died 20 years ago. Wow... it's been 20 years. Now I'm just going to concentrate on my granddad's second wife, and on getting my own life back into order. I know this may sound a little cold and callous, but I don't really believe in mourning (for a long time) someone who has lived a full life, and raised a great family, and had his fair share of ups and downs, and everything in between. Especially not when that same someone dies from a very painful illness. I'd much rather celebrate the life he lived, the people he left behind, and believe that he would much rather see me succeed than see me mourn him for a long time. I'm not saying I'm not sad he's gone... (I mean, I'm not heartless)... but I don't want to forget to live because I'm in mourning... Jeeze, I've stopped making sense again.. It's 2:40 am over here, so maybe I should just stop this and go to sleep... Enough of this. Thank you both for your support and wonderful words, you have no idea how much it means to me. <3 As for the new chapter and your comments... oohh, you guys are so wonderfully synchronized in this, that I love it. I'll start with Ayouka, because she was first. Oh, wow, how you made me laugh with that comment about Tisék. I loved it. That's actually a brilliant definition of him. Thank you for the point about the vulnerability of the characters, because honestly I hadn't noticed it, and often feel like everyone in the story is being an emo-whiny boy. But I'm so psyched that I've managed to write them that way. Now let's hope I don't get self-conscious about it, and eff it up. I have to admit that I'm a little miffed that you figured Brigale out immediately, because I was trying so hard to hide his identity, even if it was only for a little bit. I wanted the reader to go a little, "hum, who is that guy?"... You're obviously too smart for me.... So, thank you for a very wonderful review. Oh, one thing... did you notice you kept spelling Leyjen's name Leygen? Sorry to point it out, but it kind of stung me when I read your comment, you know, how misspelled words sting when you're reading something. And now you, Kylee... Ok, I want to know... why do you think Polinues is a brat? Is it because he's become possessive of Hiram, Thelaura and Cooksie? Please tell me, because that comment made me laugh. I'm sorry if I broke your heart with the whole thing with Amraeen. And I hope you can forgive me for that. As for Tisék pushing Leyjen around, it's one of those things where he figured it's better to be in pain than to be empty. Unfortunately, like Leyjen explained to Polinues, Leyjen can't do much to harm Tisék, while Leyjen has everything to lose. Tisék's father is only one rank below Wrailan in the Knighthood, and Leyjen is the (probably) illegitimate son of a maid, and a disranked lord. So, Leyjen didn't even get the short end of that stick, he only got a splinter of it! And thank you. I sort of answered that last bit above so, I'm not going to do it again. But now I've got a question for both of you. Since you guys seem to be the only ones who post here. Can either one of you draw or make pictures on the computer? I can't draw at all, I even eff up stick figures, but my imagination works in such a way that I always get pictures in my head instead of thoughts when I'm writing and creating characters and stuff. The thing is that, ever since I started writing this story I've been wanting to see Leyjen and Polinues (and any of the other characters if you're willing), and I was wondering that if you can draw or make computer pictures, whether you'd be willing to make some for me. I won't be able to pay for it in any way, and I'm not asking you for something that I'd take the copyright of. I'm only asking if you could make something that gives me an idea of what they look like. I've got a picture of an actor that I can see as almost the perfect Leyjen, but like I said, I can't change the picture into Leyjen. And before you jump up and down, yelling that you're ready to do it, I should tell you, that I'm horribly picky and want something like really perfect. Something like this: perfect So, if you guys can, I'd love it. If you can't... well, then thank you anyway. And thank you so much, (again) for your support and kind words. It does mean a lot. Sincerely, Darkling Willow.

Hey, guys. First off, thank you both, Kylee and Ayouka, for your messages. The past weekend was hard, and things got really bad for a bit. Ok, so, the funeral is set for next Tuesday, right after Easter. So, posting of Chapter 30. might not happen until sometime late next week, early week after that. But here is Chapter 29. and it's quite long, (about 10 pages, in word). I hope you'll enjoy it, and I'm looking forward to your reviews, because they usually make my day. Not to mention all the new posters... like this one Oh, mwuhahahaha.... wouldn't you like to know, Lividfire.... you'll have to read more to find out. Tons of hugs and gratitude, Darkling Willow.

Marley_Station!! You rock!! Sometimes I've got the TV, sometimes I've got some music (depending on mood) and sometimes I don't have anything. And I mean literally nothing! Like I'm home alone, and sit in the office, and there is just complete silence except for the noises outside or upstairs. The music I listen to? Rammstein - their latest album especially (Liebe ist für alle da) Some 3 Doors Down, Linkin Park, Therion (album: Deggial), Kelly Clarkson, Nightwish, Within Temptation, a little bit of everything. And lately, Adam Lambert's "For your entertainment"... I've become utterly obsessed with his bassist.... go figure. But there is quite a bit of diversity in what I listen to, and very often I get ideas from the music. Like I've got an opening scene for my novel, from the beginning of Rammstein's "Ich tu dir veh". The music just made a movie in my head, and I knew exactly what I wanted for the opening scene.

Sorry, guys. Granddad died on Friday. Be patient with me. I'll start again, when I find my head.... Sorry.

MWUHAHAHA, MWUHAHAHA! (That's my evil genius laugh, you see!) Thank you, Ayouka (is it ok, if I use that name? I like it) That was such an awesome comment!! It was BE-Awesome!! (sorry, watched "Bolt" for the first time the other day, and can't get that stupid line out of my head) And since I'm feeling giddy, and sick and want to be a jacka$$, I'm going to quote the "Prophet Chuck": *Bow, Bow, Bow* Thank you thank you.... Man, I wish I could get a reaction like that out of my hubby. Seriously, Kylee's getting all upset, Ayouka is getting all upset, and I'm getting the biggest ego-boosts I've ever gotten! You guys rock! Thank you. Sincerely, Darkling Willow. Don't take this the wrong way, guys, I'm just a little off because of the flu... I'm not always this giddy. I'll blame it on the cough syrup

Yay! Thanks Kylee, and I'm sorry about your relatives. Can I ask, where are you in the world? I've been trying to figure it out based on the times that you review, but I'm just not that good at math.... As for the story... yet another squee worthy comment, I'm so happy you like it. I take it Leyjen has become your favorite? That's really sweet that you want to comfort him that much. I hope I can keep delivering like that. And there is reason to the madness... I promise. Ayouka, thank you so much for your comment, and thank you so much for spending two days to catch up. Wow, I don't have words for how much that means to me. When I read your comments I got so giddy I just kept squeeing and clapping my hands, because I couldn't articulate my thoughts. Hubby laughed for like twenty minutes. As for the title, it is a sort of working title, and the story was supposed to center around him, but somehow it just went the other way. Maybe because Leyjen is growing up so much (as a character) through this story, but Polinues has been pretty solid for a couple of years now. Oh, and Ayouka, you've got the coolest birthday! I only know three other people who are born on that day, plus myself, so you rock!! So, thanks again, both of you, and hope you enjoy the new chapter. Sincerely, Darkling Willow. P.S. Just call me Willow... that's enough.

Hey, Kylee... gods, I hope you'll read this. I got the next chapter up, and I hope you don't want to kill me for it, but there is reason to the madness, I promise you. But I wanted to apologize in person for having taken so long, and I didn't want to put this up in an author's note. The thing is, I had to go visit my granddad over the weekend, he's dying of cancer, and it really shook me badly, so I've hardly been able to write a word, since Thursday. I'm having a hard time dealing with him being sick. Well, then on the drive back on Sunday, I started feeling sort of lousy, and woke up yesterday with a sore throat, a fever and achy bones. I hate that, those fever pains in your bones, I'm such a wuss that I just turn into a whiny five year old. Thank the Gods that I have a wonderful hubby who doesn't mind catering to my wussiness. Anyways, I'm still sick, but my brain isn't as muddled as it was yesterday, so hopefully I'll be able to get the next chapter up by the end of this week. Hope I'll hear from you, once you've read the chapter, and please forgive me. Both for taking so long updating, and for the chapter. And once again, thank you so much for all of your comments. You make me squee, every time, and sometimes your comments literally make my day. Sincerely, Darkling Willow. P.S. Just read your latest comment, Kylee, and am squeeing, despite sore throat and all!! Thank you!! That actually made being sick worth it... damn I want to give you a hug.

Yeah, well he has to... can't write to save his life! Even essays for school were a painful read when I was beta-ing for him... just painful. Found out the other day, he can't even describe a coconut... even with instructions it still sucked!

Thanks Melrick. I'll check that out. And make sure he reads all the rules. I promise

So, as with my previous post, I just found out that I've been breaking the rules by responding to reviews in the review section. Feeling horribly bad about that, I decided to open this topic in the forum, and hope that some of my readers will use it. So, here is a topic for my current story, the one that's being written as we speak... so to speak... wow, that was a bad joke. Polinues Marines, the would be mage. Warnings: Abuse, Anal, Angst, BDSM, Bi, B-Mod, Bond, Death, D/s, H/C, HJ, Humil, Language, M/F, M/M, Minor, N/C, OC, Oral, Preg, Rim, Spank, Violence, Voy, VS, WD, WIP. It's basically the pre-story for two of the main characters from my novel, the way I wish I could publish it. If it ever gets published I'm going to have to cut down on all that smut... (the horror!!) Anyway, I've got a couple of dedicated readers, and now I hope I'll get the chance to express my gratitude to them.

Hey guys. I found a post a while back that I'm pretty sure addressed this issue, but now I can't remember where it was. So, maybe one of you can answer me, or point me in the general direction. The content of the post, was basically (I hope I'm remembering this correctly) that you can sign up to AFF as a non-author, in order to write reviews for stories. But in order to do so, you have to go through some process, like contact admin, and what not. I really need to find this, so if anyone knows what I'm talking about, please, please help me. Thanks in advance.

I've been working on a story now for two months, and I've got one dedicated reader that makes me "Squee" again and again. I have another dedicated reader who doesn't review as often but her reviews are no less squee-worthy. This story is a reworking of another story, and this reader had read the original, and expressed an interest in reading the whole story. Here is the story: Polinues Marines, the would be mage It's much more detailed than the original, and started when the main character was just a baby, so it's a growing up story, on top of everything else. Most of the reviews are the standard, "the story is so great!" but very articulate and use proper grammar (usually) and I love getting each one, after posting almost every single chapter. A couple of the reviews Kylee has written: This one made me squee so bad, my hubby thought I'd finally lost it completely: The thing is that I know I'm a pretty decent writer, because I've been told so for so long, but having someone out there in the "Big World" tell me is twenty times more fun than having hubby say it. I only hope that I can continue to write this good.

Thank you so much, DemonGoddess. I think I'll be a naughty little soldier for now and move it to Originals, if you don't mind. If it doesn't fare any better there, I'll move it back... if you guys don't get to it first. And thanks again for the help.

Hey, DemonGoddess... I'm sorry for bothering you again with this, but... I was wondering if I could move my story "Polinues, the would be mage" from Fantasy>Slash to Original-misc>slash? My one dedicated reader has asked me more than once if I shouldn't, and I would like to if it's allowed. And I've noticed that there are a couple of (what I would consider) fantasy stories in the Original-misc>slash category. It is a fantasy story, set in a world of my own creation, with gods and vampires, and magical people, but nothing too extravagant. There are no dragons or stuff like that, and the world is a sort of medieval setting (castles and horses and no electricity) I wanted to ask you first, so I wouldn't break the rules, and also to ask if I can do it myself, or if you have to do it. Sorry again for bothering you with this, and thank you for your help. oh, and the link to the story is this: http://original.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600101353

Brilliant ideas both of them... Canterro Thank you so much. Figures that I had never thought about stuff like bedrock or crystals as solid earth... it makes perfect sense. Oil and gasses are really cool too. Does anyone know, tar is a natural occurrence isn't it? I mean, like the tar pits in the U.S.? And what kinds of deadly gasses occur naturally? Honestly, I stick with the three division because I couldn't think of anything smarter... It also seemed like a logical division, because of the fifth element. Clover Reef. Thank you so much, as well. And yes, I'm looking for input to complete the list, and to get ideas what others think makes sense. Thanks for your ideas, they're smarter than most of what I've come up with. Do you know of any kinds of acid that occur naturally? Darn it, I foresee a long Sunday on a well known informations site... I know, solid air!! Come on... I'm pretty sure I'm a bit more crazy than I thought Thanks again, both of you... and please keep the ideas coming...

Hey, everyone. I've been here for only a month, and I'm not really an active poster, but I've been on AFF for nearly two years. I tend to write in spurts, i.e. I write constantly for a week or a month, and then get stuck for weeks or months at a time. But, anywho...now I want to ask all of you for a little help. Hoping that there are some science geeks out there that might find this a fun challenge, So, here goes. I've been creating this fantasy novel for the past fourteen years, (yes, I said 14). It all started as just one character, but now it's grown into ten characters, four supporting characters, and dozens of extras. And one world! It sort of took on a life of its own... So what I need help with is this: A major plot element in the story, is a race known as the Aaenda. They are sort of like demigods. They are seven, and each of them controls one of the elements, (earth, air, fire, water) and the fifth element (spirit) is divided between the remaining three. Their powers are bound in these disks (one for each element), that have been broken into three pieces each, and therefore the Aaenda don't have their full power. Once the disks are put back together the Aaenda regain their full power. (i.e. if the disk of Water is put together, the Aaenda who controls water, regains her full strength) Spirit is divided between three people because when all three aspects are combined they make a whole person. And also because all three aspects are never purely evil or purely good, and can always be persuaded either way. So, each disk is split into three pieces, each representing one aspect of the element. But since only Water has three aspects, I need some help with the other elements. If anyone here is willing to help, I'd so greatly love the advice. The list that I have is as follows: (as pointed out below, by Clover Reef, I need help completing this list, and I'm looking for any sort of input on what sounds good/makes any sort of sense) EARTH gas: liquid: solid: >earth >>bedrock, crystals AIR gas: >air liquid: solid: FIRE gas: >>flames (according to Canterro) liquid: >>lava solid: WATER gas: >steam liquid: >water solid: >ice SPIRIT gas: >soul liquid: >heart solid: >mind So, if anyone has any ides, or wants to discuss this, I'd love the feedback. And I promise, that anyone who gives me solid, well thought out ideas, and helps me make this happen... I will write down your screen name and give you acknowledgments if and when my novel is published. That's a promise. Thanks all of you, WillowDarkling.

Hahaha, I'm with you there.... uhm, yeah... Cops go to Dunkin Donuts, because they can smell it!! Why do we laugh when others fall down, but get pissed off when others laugh at us when we fall?

From Iceland, we'd like it back now, please!! How come we (the public) have to pay, and not the rich f**kers who tanked the countries economy?

Haha, silly me... I'm one of those computeretarded folks, you see... Thank you very much, and story has been moved...

Hey. I'm re-uploading my story in the Original-Fantasy > Male/Male, category, because the main pairing of the story will eventually be two men. (and I hope I understood the rules right that, that is the correct location for the story, because of that main pairing) I would like only the ratings and such from the older post to be moved, and not the entire story, if it's not too much of an inconvenience. I really hope I'm doing this right... Well, the story is "Polinues Marines, the would be mage", and this is the location of the first upload, in Original-Fantasy > General http://original.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600101353 And here is the new upload: http://original.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600101391 Thank you for your assistance.

Hey. Self promotion. I feel like such an idiot for doing this, but I'm getting a little frustrated that the hit count on my stories keeps going up, but I hardly get any reviews at all. It makes me feel like I really am that bad... Plus it does say in the rules that I can promote my own story. So, I want to bring these stories to your attention. And if you're interested, and maybe if you are so inclined to give me a review. Or at the very least rate the story, so I know it doesn't totally suck. And yes, these stories are mine, I go by DarklingWillow on AFF. #1. Title: The five important numbers of my life. Author: DarklingWillow Rating: NC-17. Summary: This is a long, stream of conscience type of story. In it a young man recalls the five most important numbers in his life, and all that went with them. Love, loss, fear, happiness, and everything in between. Anal, Angst, AU/AR, Bi, COMPLETE, Death, HJ, Language, M/M, OC, Oral, Other. Fandom: Original-Misc > Slash-Male/Male. URL or Site link: http://original.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600100797 #2. Title: My Sweet Ilithil. Author: DarklingWillow Rating: NC-17. Summary: This story is now complete. Ok, this is the latest story, it's still a work in progress, but I really want some feedback on this one. It's an Original as well. It's a group of one shots, focused on two of the main characters from my novel (see Author's notes). These one shots are pretty much PWP (but not entirely) and therefore far too raunchy to ever make it into the final copy of said novel. But the focus of the stories is their relationship, how it came to be, why it turned the way it did, etc. Anal, Angst, Bi, B-Mod, H/C, HJ, Language, M/M, Minor, OC, Oral, Rim, VS, WIP Fandom: Fantasy > Slash- Male/Male. URL or Site link: http://original.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600101261 #5. Title: Polinues Marines, the would be mage. Author: DarklingWillow Rating: NC - 17 Summary: This is a re-working of the story above, that's why I'm putting it here. Here you get the full story of Leyjen and Polinues, from the very beginning. Leyjen is a maid's son, Polinues is a knight's son. They are raised together, they go to the Temples as mentor and student. They know they shouldn't be together... but how can they resist? Abuse, Anal, Angst, BDSM, Bi, B-Mod, Bond, Death, D/s, H/C, HJ, Humil, Language, M/F, M/M, Minor, N/C, OC, Oral, Preg, Rim, Spank, Violence, Voy, VS, WD, WIP. Fandom: Fantasy > Slash-Male/Male. URL or Site link: http://original.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600101353 #3. Title: The vast beauty of your creation. Author: DarklingWillow Rating: NC - 17 Summary: Ok, this one is pretty hard to summarize. It's a one shot, where Draco and Lucius enjoy a moment together... or do they? (Enter dramatic music here) Abuse, Anal, BDSM, Bond, COMPLETE, D/s, Humil, Inc, M/M, Oneshot, PWP Fandom: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Draco/Lucius URL or Site link: http://hp.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600017547 #4. Title: Nightmares. Author: DarklingWillow. Rating: NC - 17. Summary: Well, I can't summarize this one much, without giving away the whole plot. But it's focused on Draco, and Draco must contend with some of his nightmares. This one is more of a shi**y first draft than a story. The idea came to me once, when reading a review for another story. The reviewer was complaining about something, and the idea popped into my head, to grant her wish. Where I read this review or when I've completely forgotten. I've already gotten a review for this one, and it was so nice that I'm considering continuing this story, but I'm not sure where it wants to go. Abuse, Anal, Angst, AU/AR, Contro, Inc, M/M, Minor, N/C, Oneshot, WIP Fandom: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Draco/Lucius URL or Site link: http://hp.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600024213 I have one more story lying around on AFF, but I don't feel right promoting it, but if you like my other stuff you can find it through my author page. Now thank you very much for reading my (shameless self-)promotion, and I hope that you will find something here that you like. If that is the case I look forward to reading your reviews. Sincerely, WillowDarkling.

Hey. I'm not absolutely sure if the fic I'm looking for is on AFF, but I'm hoping it is, or at least someone else has read it and knows where to find it... or not find it. Anyways, I've forgotten the title and the name of the author, but here's what I remember. It was an AU/AR story, centered around Danny Messer. Danny was a street boy (adult not underaged) and made his living by selling himself. He got into some trouble with the police, and one particular police officer started abusing his power over Danny, by forcing him to have sex. I think the eventual pairing of the story was either Danny/Flack, or Danny/Mac, where the latter person "saved" Danny. I never got to finish that story, only managed the first couple of chapters before I lost it, but I'd love to find it again, and finish it. It was a very well written story, with good characters and the author managed keep Danny in character most of the time. Thanks for the help.