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so far as i know, Agaib, she doesn't write. she just reviews. the same review.... over and over again.

cos you and i are in that club together, Leon.... sure. why the hell not? i'm sure he wouldn't mind at all, either. you know how he loves

oh, that sounds like a plan. works for me. so Eve is going to fetch the toys. and i'm sure Adara and i can manage the chocolate, whipped cream and whatever else we might want to spread on his abdomen and nipples and.... yeah. so does anyone else want in on this? oh wait. that's a stupid question. we're not sharing. he's all ours. .... unless of course you beg nicely!

you're right, DA. you can never please everyone. regardless, i'm all for saying i love that you and Trae and Lang *waves hi to the new tech* are doing your best to make the site work. and work well, too.

you know, Sam. i think OCD might accompany Asperger's, given some of the symptoms. i can see it in my son and he has Asperger's. just a little bit. things like he always puts food in his mouth on the same side and chews there. always. just little things.

oh, that is such a good point, Adara. and chocolate. we can't forget the chocolate. and do you suppose we should add a cherry or two? hmmm. do we need anything else?

i think Amy's right. i think Jean Claude is always commando. tell me, though. honestly. who gives a crap if he's got any undies on when he's wearing :shudders: leather. mmmmmm.

this is s a sticky position, no matter which side you're on. i grew up in a two parent household. and both parents worked during the days. i have two older brothers and, for a while, they looked out for me. i had a babysitter. summers were spent playing outside all day long. as well as weekends during the school year. these days also involved spending time with my mother who, i have to admit, is my hero. her and my grandmother. because my grandmother was the opposite. she stayed at home, took care of her children, made the meals, cleaned and did all those things women were supposed to do before the advent of femininism. i've seen both sides of the coin. and, honestly, i don't know that one is better than the other. if i could have done it, i would have loved to have been a stay at home mother. now that my son is 14, its more or less a moot point. he doesn't need me the way he used to. sadly, i had to work. single mom and, while my mom and dad (until he passed away) helped where they could, it wasn't their responsiblity to take care of my son or myself. my job. its hard to balance both, honestly. working and being a mom. but i do what i can. my son and i go out and do a few things when we can. mostly we go to the movies. and he's fine with that. he understands that it takes a while for me to make the money that we need when we do those things. sometimes, the choice is taken away from us. but just because some women choose to work... that doesn't give anyone else the right, man or woman, to degrade them for their choice. for those of you who have chosen to stay home to be with their kids, i admire you and wish you the best of luck. to those of us moms who have no choice..... good luck to us as well. no matter which path we've taken, all that matters is whether or not our kids are healthy, happy and well adjusted. as Agaib said, one isn't better than the other.

some people don't know what makes a good chapter length, some of them just can't manage to write that much. and Nan's right. the whole purpose of this fix is to prevent chapters that are merely edited from rising to the top. it should help keep some people happy and keep them from screaming about those fics that try to remain on the top for hours on end.

well, my butt is big and white and..... best left to the imagination, i think. i can get pics of just about every tat i have, though i'll have to have help with the back. the resolution may not be too good because i plan on using the webcam. it should hopefully make smaller pics. if nothing else, i can always upload them to photobucket or something and then provide links. i'll have to do that tomorrow. gods, i want more ink. and i try to be both lenient and involved. i can remember being that age. my son is actually pretty level headed. i don't worry about him so much as i worry about the others around him. but the moment he says he wants ink, i'm driving him myself!

well, i've finally updated one of my HP fics. Arianrhod's Vessel has been updated and is ready for your reading enjoyment. since this is the first time i've posted for this story here on the forums, here's a quick blurb about the story. Arianrhod's Vessel: Lucius/OFC, Lucius/OFC/Narcissa, Lucius/OFC/Snape, Snape/OFC. this story was born from the idea that we don't see much other than what Harry sees. so i decided that i wanted to write a story about the Malfoys. only it isn't all sunshine and roses. Narcissa can't get pregnant and Lucius will do anything to make his wife happy. so when he finds a young woman on the streets and realizes that there is something quite different about her, he immediately accepts her into his household. find out how she can, with unnamed magic that she doesn't even understand, help get Narcissa pregnant. its set in the present (Draco's third year) with flashbacks to thirteen years before. this not only tells the story of how Nisha got Narcissa pregnant, but it will also unravel the story behind Nisha herself. i will warn you that the flashbacks take place when Nisha is 15 and there's going to be a little underaged sex so..... you've been warned. Chapter Ten: The Darkest Of Plots is available for your reading pleasure. enjoy! it can be found here: Arianrhod's Vessel

you're most welcome. i'm glad i could be of help. as for the artist.... all i can recommend is that if you're going to put time and energy into the design yourself, you need to find someone who can do freehand. trust me, it might be a little more expensive, but the results are well worth it in the long run. the man who did the faerie and chalice on my back did freehand work. and he did some great work. most of the tats i have came from patterns that they made copies of and then put on the skin. but the freehand ones have been some of the best, by far. the faerie isn't freehand. she's actually from a sticker i got at Hot Topic ages ago. but she looks so much better than the damn sticker. i have pictures of the older ones that i can post and those i don't have, i can take pics of to post. i'll be kind and spare you the butt shots. if he ever wants one, he has to wait until he's 18. its law and not even a parent's signature will get around that law. and if he wants one bad enough to want to do it under the table, it won't be worth it. i want who ever pierces and inks him to take every precaution. so it'll be done the right way. by the way, the belly button piercing didn't hurt. not for me. and they heal fairly quickly. some of the other piercings take quite some time to heal. rubbing is tricky when its still fresh, but once its good and healed, it shouldn't be as much of a problem. and mine rubs cos i got myself a tummy. infection is a possibility more from the actual piercing process than from outside influences. but it can happen. i keep a bottle of betadine in my bathroom for times when it gets iffy. that stuff works wonders.

i've never been diagnosed. i think, firstly, that doctors make too damn much money. also, as Adara mentioned, they're too ready to hand you a scrip for meds and aren't interested in helping you find some way to work it through. and why not? puts more money in their pockets. i detest labels. when i was growing up, people did not get labeled the way they do now. and you never saw kids taking anti-depressants. they were outside, working through their problems by playing games and spending time with their friends. society has grown lazy, i think, and the way our kids are medicated reflects this. everyone goes through periods where they're on top of the world, then they're at the bottom of the shit pile. how they handle these situations, though, is what makes a difference. most people, i feel, don't need to be on anti-depressants. there are some who do. i know a few. i'm not saying that no one needs meds or help on occasion. but people are too ready to lay the blame somewhere and want to forget their problem exists than try and work out what's making them depressed in the first place. i know i have idiosyncrasies that some might find to be signs of mental disorders. i know i have, to an extent, OCD. i honestly don't think there's a person who doesn't. i'm sure there are others, but i can't think of them off the top of my head. honestly, i'd be worried if someone came out and said they didn't have some sort of mental problems. normal people scare me.....

awwww.... i missed this last night. Happy Birthday, you sweet kitty. where do you want scritches? behind the ear or under the chin? maybe at the base of the tail? *scritch, scritch, scritch*

Madlodger: i beg your pardon. Mister was the first thing that popped out. you are welcome to properly chastise me for such an error. the earcuff has sort of ended up being something i almost don't dare go without. my ear feels naked, yes.. i know that sounds so strange. but its true.... if i don't have an earcuff dangling off my ear, its naked. Cynthia's designs are supposed to have inspired the ear cuffs worn by the.... crap, not even going to try and spell it... one group of aliens on ST:DS9. the ones that are listed on her website are rather old and, compared to what she makes now, simplistic. her new designs are so elegant and smooth. they practically flow like water. i'm probably one of her biggest customers. i have something like 4 dozen pairs of her earrings and purchase more all the time. i still have the first pair i bought from her, too. well, black is my favorite color. the only other black you can get on jewelry is pretty much jet. glass beads aren't as..... significant to me. i prefer onyx. it has weight and depth and its supposed to be one of the strongest natural stones when it comes to catching and storing energy. this is why i have an onyx crystal around my neck. along with moonstone and garnet and a small amount of amethyst. and i'm drawn toward all things Celtic. knots, music.... i'd love to learn to speak Gaelic. i have a book and tape, but i've never started. i understand it can be difficult. especially since there's Scots Gaelic and Irish Gaelic. i've heard it spoken. i think, though, that i can learn Gaelic if i can learn German. oddly, i've had them with me so long.... some as long as fifteen years.... that i don't remember the days so much. i sometimes forget i've got them, if you can believe it. but i can tell you that the pain was, for me, minimal. only a couple of them were so bad that i can recall it. a friend and i used to tell people when asked 'Didn't that hurt?' that it feels kind of like a burn before the pain stops all together. the tip of the dagger or sword on my leg is high enough that it hit my thigh bone. that hurt. as did the moon on the back of my neck. again, for the same reason. most of them, though, i barely remember getting. when i look at them all, though, the whole picture they paint is very accurate of who and what i am. faeries, images of the Goddess, tribal (thought popular with many of the trendy tat people, to me they seem very spiritual) animal totems and the ancient Celts.... these are all things that i am in to. that i'm about. they define me in some way that i don't think words ever can. i'm so pleased with the way the wolf came out. most animal faces tend to look as if they've been pushed in. the artist who did it was just amazing. the tat is done in such a way that it seems you're looking right up the length of the wolf's muzzle into his eyes. its really just.... words cannot describe it. Throbbin' Rodd was one of those spur of the moment things. it was, and is, still a source of amusement for me. and i know there's a picture or video of it floating around somewhere. thanks for the spanking. i won't tell you how badly i need one. now if only i could find the right person to give it to me..... no, my son doesn't know about the tat with his initials. maybe, when he's older and all, i might consider letting him know. right now, he's still at the age where he doesn't want to discuss stuff like that. never mind he's been with to several of my tattooing sessions. again, black is my favorite color, followed closely by purple. so yes, there's lots of those colors. and i don't know that i have a picture of my left arm. if not, i can probably snap one with the webcam and share. would that be acceptable? if you do decide to get your tat, do lots of research. most places now are required by law to have an autoclave on site. they have to be clean and sterile. a good artist will never use ink from the same cup for more than one person. if he stops what he's doing, he should change his gloves before starting again. yes, they wear gloves. protection goes both ways. talk to the artists themselves, tell them what you want. some will allow a dry run with the gun before you get inked. you can stand in the shop and watch them work. and just remember, never trust a tattoo artist who doesn't have any ink showing on himself. that's never a good sign in my book. check for pictures of work they've done. if the tattoo shop has a website, visit it. you can't be too careful because it is something you have to live with for the rest of your life. she got a dagger tattooed over the scar and its very well done, very bright and quite covers the parts of the scar that it sits over. you can't tell that there's a scar beneath it unless you look really close. so i don't see why you can't get what you want and have the ink do what you want. unless you just can't find the right artists. some will tell you that it can't be done. keep looking. and keep in mind that some will be more willing to do their work for less than the usual rate. because they want people to see their work and come in.

oooooooooooooo! .......... that definitely peaks my interest.

oh, you're just Mister Want To Know It All, aren't you? so..... let's talk about piercings first. at present, i have ten holes in my ears. six in the left and four in the right. it sounds odd, but i wear ear cuffs and they all go on the right, so i left that one with a couple less holes. at the moment, all but one pair stays the same. i have titanium and onyx studs in both top holes, as well as a titanium and rhinestone in the second hole from the top on the left. then i have a Celtic knot in the third hole from the top. the next three holes are the same on both sides. i know this lady who makes earrings. i love them so much that i'm always wearing three pairs. right now, the first hole has long, clear quartz dangle earrings with a cuff on the right. the second hole has black onyx dangles with small Celtic crosses at the bottom. the third hole has purple dangles with a tear drop bottom. for those who might be interested, Cynthia's work can be found at Starlit Skies she also does prints and has expanded into very labor intensive necklaces. she's simply amazing. i have my belly button pierced. it has a sterling ring with a hematite ball in it. i used to have my nipple done. sadly, it grew out. that one had a hoop with an onyx ball. i've never gotten it redone because i know it'll just grow out again. to give you an idea, my nipples are about the size of normal lipstick tube. so the ring that went through the left one was huge. rubbing against my bra was what killed the piercing for me. i miss it at times. but... eh. shit happens. now, for tats..... how long do you have? i have 15 total. some are in black and gray, some are colored. my first one was daggers and roses around my right ankle. black daggers, red and purple roses. the other ankle has a Celtic knotwork band around it. on my calves, on the inside, i have a tribal in all black as well as a black circle with four lightning bolt looking thingies coming out of it. one is green, one is red, one is white and one is blue. Earth, Air, Fire, Water. i have another Celtic knot on my left calf done in red and purple. hard to explain, but it looks cool. there's some white in it, too. i guess i'm one of those people who can take white. a kind of fast, cheesy set of bites under my left knee. then i have one on each thigh. there's a wolf's head on my left thigh. he's all black and gray, with lovely, piercing blue eyes. he looks amazing. there's a wingless dragon around a dagger in black and gray on my right thigh, then i have one on each butt cheek. my son's initials in a heart on one side and a band's name on the other. this is worth a chuckle. Throbbin' Rodd. it was a local band and i found it amusing. so did they. and a couple of the guys from Pantera. on my back, i have a faerie. she's in color. she rests over a chalice of water. there's ivy entwined around the chalice. there's also a small, crescent moon at the base of my neck in purples and white. then a tribal in black on my right arm and this nifty design on my left. i can't tell you what it is, but the artist who did it didn't leave behind any lines. its black, blue and purple. each section was outlined by the color he used there. its pretty sweet. okay... my arms were done by two different guys. my thighs, butt cheeks, ankles and one of the two on each calf were all done by the same guy. he's been tattooing since before i was born. he's damned good. the other two on my calves were done by two different guys. the faerie and the chalice were done by the same guy and he was going to do an entire back piece for me, piece by piece. but he moved shops and then left state. it sucked because he was amazing. i still have the design he was going to put on my back next. all in all, i've not been under the needle and come out not liking the man who did the artwork. and i've liked all the art work, too. and most of it was picked at random, but most of it means something to me. like the dragon and the wolf. two of the animals i identify with the most. like wise the faerie. and the Celtic knots. i can't explain why i picked them and it not sound like i was just picking to get ink. it all means something to me, but that doesn't mean i can explain them away. as for covering scars.... i work with a lady who just got her temple tattooed to cover a scar. the colors are vibrant and the artwork looks really good. so i don't see why you can't do the same, Madlodger.

oh yes. good old Megan. i've gotten a couple reviews from her. and i know a friend got one on one of her completed fics. and it seems to be random because i've heard she hits lots of different categories. most people only read in certain areas because not everything on site is going to interest them. perhaps its a conspiracy. a test. we're all lab rats and its similar to Pavlov's tests. pretty soon, we're all going to respond to that damn review and write another chapter. .....even for those completed one shots we have published.

we need to form our own club, Leon. not getting any has to be the prerequisite to be a member. maybe just girls can be in it. dunno. what do you think?

i was in the eighth grade when everything changed here. i suddenly went from being flat to having boobs. i dun think i've ever really had a waist. i mean, its there, but it certainly isn't worth noting. *snorts* but yeah, i was about 14 when all of this took place. i was so under-impressed, let me tell you...

gee.... thanks for the understanding, Nan. and for leaving me in the sexual version of Siberia. its cold here. and lonely. and damn it, my fingers just don't satisfy me.

i don't think, in all of my life, i've ever been called perky. i breast fed my son and, despite losing the weight i gained and doing that, too, my boobs got BIGGER! so i'm currently nestled in a 46DD. no more nipple rings for me, damn it. so the word perky has never been attributed to anything more than my annoying attitude, at times. yeah. i'm perky just to annoy the piss out of people. more often than not, i'm grumpy and crabby. still, a friend put it best. she said it was like the tittie faerie came and visited me because i went from being flat to having some serious boobs overnight. why couldn't the tittie faerie have come with her buddy, the skinny faerie, and taken care of that, too? still.... i've never been unhappy with my boobs. and, to be honest, tittie fucking is underrated. its definitely something guys want to do more than women, in my opinion.

well, unfortunately for me, i can't go braless. i have to strap one on every day. i wear underwires, padded full cups. full coverage. too much boob not to. i've found that i honestly prefer to wear a corset or a bodice. sadly, though, they tend to start bothering me at the end of the day. of course, me in a bodice is scary as hell. every year, i hear the same two questions. usually from women. Doesn't that hurt? and Can you breathe? from men, i've gotten the following: You could feed a third world country with those. You can see those from space. honestly. wear a bodice, lace it just a smidge too tight and suddenly its like men have never seen boobs before. sheesh.

i usually wear thongs under them. for some reason, i've never gotten used to going without. maybe that's because, other than potty time and showers, i have no reason to take them off. *sighs* all this and boobs, too. now you know why i write such great smut, Nan. cos i don't get any and i have to live vicariously through my fingers yes, in more ways than one......

i wear boxers for shorts. i have more pairs of those than i do regular shorts. so i guess i wear boxers, too.