CL Mustafic

Review Replies for Picking Up the Pieces Chapter 9 Hi, long time no see! Okay so I’m going to apologize for not updating this one forever. I just have to say that it’s because I wrote myself into a corner. I considered rewriting the last chapter I posted but… I’m lazy. I know I say that a lot but you people really have no idea just how true it is. Instead of reworking the whole story I decided to just gloss over it by skipping ahead in time by leaps and bounds (tiny ones but you didn’t miss anything because Matt is still being stubborn and avoiding contact with Payne). It was just a little glitch that prevented me from going where the story needed to go. If you’ve ever written anything you’ll know what I’m talking about, you know that middle part that just sucks to write? Yeah, that’s where I was stuck so anyway I think I figured it out. I talked it out with my favorite sounding board, Tahn, and she always has some really rotten ideas (I’m kidding of course) that somehow spark really good ones in my mind. So everyone thank Tahn for the updates to come because without her, I think I may have just given up. I have two chapters completed and one almost half written, going to finish this sucker yet!! On a little side note. I realize that I’m playing fast and loose here with police protocol but since this is fiction, I’m going to keep doing it and if you have a problem with that I suggest you go read some true crime novels or something. Anyway, on to review replies… Lisa: Um, it’s been awhile so I’m thinking you probably got used to the new functions so we’ll skip that part. LOL I think Matt and Stella’s partnership may see some stress in the future but yes it was nice that they could put Payne at ease a bit with their banter. Yep Marv has a family and they are in for a big surprise along with other families I suppose. I agree, Baz sucks. Tahn: No cops were harmed in the making of this story, so no, no cops involved. Thanks for the ear and if I ever get around to it, this one will be dedicated to you. Mona Thompson: I’m sorry I’ve been so slow to update but I gave my excuse up top. I’m dedicated to finishing this one so the updates should come at a steady pace barring any unforeseen accidents/illnesses. Ramblingrobin: I always squee a little when I see a review from you. I think I said one time before you are what brought me to AFF and for that I’m eternally grateful. I’m glad you like it so far and I hope you continue to do so. Thanks for the review! Jess: I saw that you were searching for this one, I’m glad you found it. Yes they are the same Matt and Payne from THW and I’m sorry if that story was a spoiler for you. I guess I figure most people know that my characters end up with a HEA so the journey to get there is why they read in the first place. Also sometimes I don’t really know that my side characters will get their own story and sometimes their story is something I have to tell so I don’t even know that the spoilers are there when I write them. Thanks for reviewing! Okay so that’s all for now, thanks again to all my patient readers and reviewers! Chapter 10 is up now! CL

CL thinks probably not.

They replaced the cat pokes so they're basically the hit counter. From one old lady to another.

Chapter 14 is up!

Hey, my brass balls are offended by you laughing at them! Review Replies for Backdoor Politics Chapter 13 Welcome back and thank you for reading and reviewing! This next chapter is a fluffy one. Okay so maybe not fluffy but not as dark as the others have been so far, at least I don’t think it is but then my perception is a little skewed right now. Oh and it’s also not even 7am and I’ve been up since 4:30 so excuse me if I make any mistakes on this here thingy. And the replies will probably be shorter and more incoherent than usual, my apologies in advance. On to review replies… Lavi1443: I know, it’s like a train wreck, you just can’t look away. I’m afraid it might get a bit worse in the coming chapters but I’m glad you’re still hanging in there! Thanks for the review. Pippychick: Yes that ever present carrot that Kamal keeps dangling just out of Zijad’s reach is surely even more torturous than the torture. There are times when I hate Kamal and when he couldn’t even agree to grant a dying man’s wish was one of them. Thanks again for everything and the review too! BronxWench: I think at this point Zijad is just grasping for any last hope for survival left in his small world but then at the same time I think he’s resigned himself to what he sees as his inevitable fate with Orhan not agreeing to the terms of release. Yes, Kamal is slipping past the point of no return quickly but I’m not sure that Kamal’s bond with Orhan would have shielded Zijad from what’s to come. Thank you for reviewing again! Ahsia: I keep hoping the same thing as I write this but sadly, no, he’s not going to become the good guy. I’m sorry it makes you sad. Thanks for reviewing. Tahn: I think that Kamal’s revelation that Zijad is not his father is a double edged sword for him and I promise nothing when it comes to Zijad’s situation getting better. You would keep him as a pet. Would you really want to be Kamal’s pet? You crack me up. Thanks for reviewing, you now I always appreciate it. Lisa: You have to remember he was young back then and you still don’t have all of his backstory as to why he’s such an asshat. Yeah, he’s no better than the men he holds in contempt for their actions but he rationalizes what he’s doing so that makes if okay. I told them not to leave you clues that we’re stalking you! LOL Thanks for reviewing! That’s all for now, thanks again to all who reviewed! Chapter 14 is up now! CL

The slightly underage Thranduil of course. You know you want to write it...

Here's to my big brass balls! May they hold up through the next story I decide to write.

Oops I forgot chapter 13 is up.

Review Replies for Backdoor Politics Chapter 12 Welcome back and thanks again for reading and reviewing! Okay so this next chapter may not make a lot of sense to some of you but there is a master plan so have no fear! Um yeah, well just so you know the human mind is very resilient and when it comes to self preservation it will go to great lengths to survive, just keep that in mind when you read the first part of chapter 13. Oh and in other news they just did the first successful penis transplant in America! So many ideas swirling around now, damn you CNN!! On to review replies… Pippychick: You ask some very valid questions here and of course I don’t have the answers to them. I do think that our circumstances do weigh heavily on who we are but maybe some people are born predisposed to becoming a person like Kamal. Obviously many other people lived through the same or similar horrors as he did and they came out of it more or less normal. But yes, the fact that one human being can do such atrocious things to another does not speak well for the state of humanity. I too know how you feel about Orhan and I can’t say I blame you. Thanks for everything once again. BronxWench: I felt like I needed to include what he’s been through not because I wanted to garner sympathy for him but more to show that he’s seen and most likely done things so horrific that what he’s doing to Zijad is really nothing in comparison. And also to show he’s capable of so much worse. While Kamal is losing it, I’m not sure if that’s exactly a bad thing for Zijad. It’s a hard thing to explain but the fact that he was bound by Julien’s plan was actually worse for Zijad, now that Kamal doesn’t feel like he’s doing someone else’s work, I think things will even out, or not, don’t hold me to that. As far as Zijad goes, I think he’s stronger than he comes across. He knows that Kamal can kill him at any time but despite him begging for it, I think his instinct to live will keep him struggling to do so. Uggh, my reply is huge! LOL Thank you once again for such a thought provoking review! Rojin: You’re welcome and thank you for leaving a review. I can’t promise anything but I guess it will depend on your definition of suffering as to if Zijad will till the end. Tahn: I’m sorry for the baby squishing. I usually try not to put too much work into anything (I’m lazy ) so thanks for recognizing when I do. And thanks for reviewing and still reading even though I squished the baby. Okay well that’s all for today, thanks again to the reviewers! Chapter 13 is up now! CL

Well good luck with your added work load, it sounds like you'll be quite busy but sometimes that's a good thing, right? Thanks for stopping in, I'm like a weird sort of mother hen, I worry when people just drop off the face of the earth for a bit with no word so it's good to know you're just busy but well. See you soon.

I think this might pertain more to het couples because it is harder to make a woman come (it takes some work believe me) and most young women aren't even aware of what their own bodies need to achieve the big O with a partner or are too shy to ask for what they need. Guys on the other hand know what is needed to make them come for the most part and since you're dealing with two guys chances are the virgin has masturbated and will know how to make the other guy shoot. Just write it and don't worry about it so much or if you do worry that much find a beta that writes the same sort of thing and have them give you some pointers. Most importantly, have fun, that's why we do this after all, right? CL

Just posted the epilogue...

Review Replies for Calling the Ball Chapter 16 Welcome back to all those reading and reviewing! Well here we are at the end. The epilogue is short but I think it’s cute and it fits. Anyway, I’m totally thinking about submitting this to a publisher so don’t be surprised if it disappears in the near future. I’ve actually been editing it in the past few days and gearing up to write the summary and query letter so… Okay so on to the replies… BronxWench: I guess I just wanted them to have supportive people around them because those people have to exist out there in the real world, right? I guess I just think of what kind of mom I’d be if it were my son and it’s a no brainer. I know! Well at least there’s no doubt about how Henrick feels at least. I’m so glad that I could put a little fluff in your life at least for a bit. Thank you for reading the whole darn thing, I appreciate the support. HideAndGoSeek: Hi, long time no see! I’m really glad you love it! I was sort of thinking that Tino either didn’t hear Henrick say it the first time or since it wasn’t in the ‘I love you, I love him’ form it didn’t really click for Tino, if that makes any sense. And I think Henrick will always have just a little bit of doubt about if Tino would have come out if the pictures hadn’t surfaced of them kissing, maybe after some time that doubt will dwindle or he may just not care in the end anyway. Of course Tino could always convince him. Again, glad you’re enjoying it. Only the Epilogue left. Thanks for the review! Tahn: Yeah, I forgot you made me write this chapter. I’m not sure if I should thank you or smack you… Ah well I guess I’ll be gracious and say thanks for making me write this chapter, mean lady. Lisa: I’m sorry they were so hard to finish! LOL I was too, I was so glad he declared it to everyone that way! Yep you spelled it really really wrong but she forgives you since you like her so much. If I wrote het stuff that turned out remotely good, I’d write a story for her. Thanks for reviewing again! Okay that’s all for now, thanks again for the reviews! The Epilogue is up now! CL

I would say that if you are looking for it to be somewhat realistic, remember that everything will not go smoothly. Try to remember your first time. If it was anything like most people's there was a lot of fumbling about and a fair bit of awkwardness. Of course that can be a fine line to walk if you're also looking for it to be titillating to your readers, you probably don't want it to be too realistic because someone stopping in the middle because it hurts isn't exactly what most readers are looking for in their porn. (I know this as a fact ) If you're not shooting for anything near realistic, then anything goes I guess. And what would make you think that anyone would think you look silly? Have you read some of the drivel some of us put out there? CL

Chapter 12 is up!

Review Replies for Backdoor Politics Chapter 11 *peeks cautiously into her own thread* Well since no one is here to clobber me for torturing poor Zijad, I guess we’ll get this show on the road. Welcome back, thank you for reading and reviewing and not smacking me. I really don’t know what to say… I mean the story is what it is, oh! It’s finished! Twenty chapters and an epilogue! Yeah, that’s right I wrote the whole darn thing so now just got to post it slowly so you guys don’t bail on me because I overwhelmed you with Kamal’s douchebaggery. And before I forget I have to thank dafdes/pippychick again for being a wonderful, supportive sounding board for all my craziness and then also for doing an excellent job of cleaning up my messy writing so it looks like I didn’t fail elementary school grammar. On to review replies… Lavi1443: Yeah, I’m trying not to hold myself back on this one, just letting the ugliness come out. LOL Kamal is a selfish douchebag and I’m surprised you can relate to him but happy someone can. He’s very damaged. Thanks for the review. BronxWench: Yes, no turning back now… He’s now damaged Zijad beyond repair I think and yes, Zijad knows that he’s got no choice in the matter and will do whatever he needs to survive, even thanking his rapist. There is a reason the videoed portion wasn’t as brutal as one would have expected it to be but I can’t tell you why just yet. Kamal will get his chance off camera to do as he wishes to the boy and it’s not going to be pretty. Like I said, Zijad is broken and Kamal, well I think maybe he will just turn a blind eye to what he has really become or maybe he’ll embrace it? Thanks again, I couldn’t wait to hear what you thought and your reviews always make my day. Pippychick: Yes, you did tell me that and I thought it was probably the most poignant moment in this chapter. I guess his finding out when he did and then having Kamal do the things he did will maybe help Zijad in a way, at least now he knows that he can’t trust Kamal in even the smallest of ways. I also think he would have faired better in Julien’s hands because it wouldn’t have been personal and I think Zijad can feel that with Kamal there is something there driving him. And thank you again, I don’t think I can say it enough. Anon: I’m sure everyone is wondering about Zijad’s thoughts and what he was like before but that is why I’m only going at this story from Kamal’s pov. If I showed you Zijad’s mind, it would be too much, he’s terribly broken. And this would have turned into a much different story, I think. But I do think it’s a little of both, he’s somewhat submissive and he knows that if he submits to Kamal he’s not hurt as much. Thanks for reviewing. Mint: Yes, poor Zijad. Like I said above I think it’s a little of both and now that he knows they are the same man, I think he’ll be a bit more wary of Kamal (if that’s at all possible at this stage). Thanks for reviewing. Tahn: Yep, Kamal screwed the pooch on that one. I’m not sure Zijad could act any differently than he already is, he’s just trying to survive with the slim hope that he’ll be saved at some point. Of course with him knowing now, there’s nothing stopping Kamal from being just as sadistic as he likes, see a bright side! Thanks for reviewing again! Lisa: I thought I lost you! I think I read somewhere that you were quite busy so you get a pass for falling behind. Do you really think so? I guess we’ll see if Zijad has an effect on Kamal other than giving him a raging boner. I never thought of that but I think dick’s age so maybe Kamal’s has put on some weight and Orhan won’t recognize it? LOL I’m giggling over here. Thanks for reviewing. Arata: I’m glad you think so. Well this story does have kidnapping and rape but the love at the end might be questionable… You’re not crazy because if you’re crazy for reading it then I must be certifiable for writing it. Thanks for stopping by and reviewing. Okay that’s all for now, thanks again to everyone that reviewed! Chapter 12 is up now! CL

Chapter 16 is up!

Review Replies for Calling the Ball Chapter 15 Welcome back to all that are reading and reviewing! Okay so they are finally together! And the next chapter is the last, there is a short epilogue to follow though. Anyway, not much to say so... BronxWench: Yes, your threats scared the crap out of them. It helped that I told them you'd eat them soon if they didn't get their act together. Yes, I'm really glad that Tino told him it wasn't because of the pictures too. Smack away at Klaus, I've no further use for him. Tahn: I know lots of people who would disagree with that statement. That's all for now, thanks to BronxWench and Tahn for their lovely reviews! Chapter 16 is up now! CL

Oh yes, the love is there and it's plain to see. I can't remember if I left my thoughts in a review or if I just told you how I wished I could write about elves that lived forever so that I could tell an epic romantic story like yours but then you do it so well that I don't have too because I can just read yours. I can see Elrond's hesitation and I can also see the reasons for it and they are good ones, no doubt, doesn't stop me from wanting to see it happen all the same. I'll wait patiently for it to happen though (of course I think I only have to wait for the next chapter so that is why I'm being so patient). CL

Chapter 11 is up!

Reviews for Backdoor Politics Chapter 10 Well it looks like we’ve lost a few along the way so thanks to those of you that are still reading! I love the insightful reviews so double thanks to those that left one for me to think on. Anyway, I’m posting chapter 11 today and I think it’s sort of a turning point in the story. I’m not sure why I think that way but for me it sort of feels like it is. I’m actually working on chapter 16 and 17 today and the story is drawing to an end with the completion of chapter 17 I think there will only be maybe one more and an epilogue so yay for almost finishing the writing part of this thing! I hope you guys are enjoying it and don’t be shy, you can always come in here to leave your thoughts if you don’t want them out on the review board which seems more public even if this is a public forum. On to replies so I can get the chapter posted… BronxWench: I think you’re right, Zijad has to know that it’s only one person but I think until he has definite proof, he’s willing to pretend for his own sanity. Kamal is falling apart there’s no doubt about that but I think he’ll regain some control but maybe not in the way he expected too. He is fragile, his emotions have been buried for so long that he has no idea how to deal with them anymore but no he’s never going to be tender or even take pity on anyone which sounds sad but it’s who he is. Thanks for reviewing, I always wait to hear what you thought of it and it always makes my day. Tahn: Yes well he is just one guy and he’s out of his element really with the torture Julien had planned so he’s having a hard time separating what needs to be done for the job and what he’d like to do personally to Orhan through his son. Little surprise in the next chapter. Thanks for letting your dark side out to play long enough to read my story. LOL Pippychick: Oh man, that’s a question for someone much smarter than me. I have no idea if fate has it all planned out for us but it does seem like Zijad has somewhat accepted his for the time being at least. Thank you so much for all your help with this, your insights are amazing and you’re a wonderful sounding board. I’m going to dedicate this one to you! Well that’s all for now, thanks again for the reviews! Chapter 11 is up now! CL

Chapter 15 is up!

Review Replies for Calling the Ball Chapter 14 Welcome back and thank you all once again for reading and reviewing! Okay so I’m gonna keep this short and sweet because it’s finally time! What you’ve all been waiting for is finally about to happen! On to review replies… Coral: Yes, Tino certainly does! I have no idea what Henrick was thinking and sometimes I just want to smack him for Klaus. I’m sorry you have to wait but I’m on a schedule here. LOL Thanks for the review. BronxWench: Yep, Henrick really needs that spanking now, Klaus was stupid one time but to let him in again is asinine. You didn’t really think I’d kill off poor Henrick (even though he’s an idiot) did you? It’s just a scrape, he’s fine. Yes, I think Tino is ready to pull his head out of his ass and maybe then he can pull Henrick’s out of his. You know you’re going to get that happy ending soon-ish. Tahn: You think? Yeah, probably. Lisa: It was nice of Klaus to step in though I have a feeling Henrick was only a moment away from making stranger danger sing in a much higher key. Yes, Klaus is possessive but he’s the wrong sort of possessive for Henrick. My first intention was to kill off Henrick and put Klaus and Tino together. LOL I’m kidding, really the thought never crossed my mind… Okay so that’s all for now, thanks again to my reviewers! Chapter 15 is up now! CL

Chapter 10 is up!