BronxWench

Contacts, bisssshhh. Get on my level, lol.

I think maybe we’re all comfortable with how fucked up we are and are less judgemental in general. That is so weird because I had the opposite experience back when I was a teenage girl on a fighting game forum. When I outed myself, suddenly people started being nice to me and middle-aged men were blowing up my inbox. Ha!

I actually remember those days in MMORPG land pretending to be a man and arguing with preteen bigots quite fondly. That particular game had a horribly closed minded community as far as MMORPGs go, but for nearly a decade they were my peeps lol. I stick to single player games now, just because I can’t be arsed to go through the learning curve of being a newbie in another MMORPG community. 
I can’t speak for normal writing communities. I dove right into smut first chance I got, so I’ve always been surrounded by pervs like you guys. For some reason I find pervs of the creative variety are very rarely douchebaggy in general, much less about gender. 

“Are you on your period?” “No I just don’t like you”

“ . It’s a damn good thing writing communities aren’t so closed minded and douchebaggy. “ Unless, you know, someone wants to ship Harry/Hermione then hooboy.

I’m not a huge MMORPG gamer, preferring my standalone games, but I do play one or two. I’m still BronxWench there, which should be a giveaway, and I tend to ignore the chatter of anyone outside my party, so I’m probably unaware of all the insults being hurled my way. Of course, ignoring the little trolls tends to make them explode and/or go away, which are both fine with me.
My RL work background makes me sort of impervious to most things anyway. I always worked in male-dominated industries, and held my own. I had to take at least one vacation of two weeks or more each year by mandate, and I would get these frantic calls, if I was someplace with phone service (this was pre-cell phone days, my lovelies), usually right before I was due back. Of course, I always timed vacations so I would never miss anything important, but men fret a lot. Really. 

I’m sorry you had that experience, ugh! Yeah, gaming communities can totally get like that but I feel like that, unfortunately, comes with the territory. I’m glad you’re in better company now!

I used to play an MMORPG and whenever I said I was a girl there, there’d be douchebags around to call me a liar and accuse me of being a 40 year old man. So I stopped answering the gender question and for many years pretended I was a man lol. Then everyone thought I was gay… Which wasn’t entirely inaccurate. It’s a damn good thing writing communities aren’t so closed minded and douchebaggy. But now that I can be myself, gender has become more of a puzzle to me that I’m less eager to commit to. I’m a woman, but I like to keep my options open lol. 
All the fun people are a little cagey about something anyway. 

Because we all fret about how the Internet will perceive us?
I’m an old thing, so I don’t care anymore. I was already comfortable in my skin before the Internet was a thing. I rock my wenchness.

Thanks, @JayDee Worse things happen at sea, as they say. Ha… worse things happen in my fanfic. Much worse. Honestly, I’ll be absolutely fine in a week or so.

Sleep’s good. I hope it works out! I also really hope y’improve and feel better soon.

*giggles* You are sooo naughty! But, I’d probably be the same *nods*

@BronxWench
Thank you so much… I think being able to talk to you has kept me partway sane, and I really mean that. You’re the Queen of awesome! 
I need to stop smoking too, really. I will… soon. Perhaps when I’ve got over it, I’ll stop to celebrate my freedom

I can certainly sympathize with the need for cigarettes, although everyone here frowns at me for wanting to fall back on my former (and well loved) addiction….
But you are worth FAR more than being toyed with, and you are not alone. Never alone, and never worthless. The gift of your friendship is something I cherish, lass. Never doubt that.

So sad and introspective and yet somehow your words are still beautiful. The demons your wrestling with sound like real bitches, so I hope you figure out how to slay them or embrace them (whatever your particular needs may be). 

Sorry you’re feeling that way. . I hope you feel a bit better in the morning and if it’s a long term feeling maybe see a Doctor?

Having been there and done that all before, I can talk from experience, and I can tell you don’t have to climb out of the pit alone.  I couldn’t; I needed help doing so.  Don’t be afraid to tell people you need help.  Remember, you’re not weak if you admit you need help, you’re weak if you don’t.

Oh, lass… 

I’ve pretty much switched to paperless notifications, so most of my information reaches me by Jan 31. My state requires e-filing, so that’s as free as the Feds.

I’ve pretty much switched to paperless notifications, so most of my information reaches me by Jan 31. My state requires e-filing, so that’s as free as the Feds.

Files, and the Feds deposited the refund already.

Files, and the Feds deposited the refund already.

We had a yard puddle that took a quarter of the yard. If it had frozen, we could open a skating rink among the trees.
I keep getting surprised by which dog wants out in the cold and which would rather come in from the cold RIGHT NOW!

Agreed.  “Lincoln” Ch. 19 is giving me just a little bit of trouble, since I haven’t paid attention to it lately.  “Bond” is mostly being “brought over” from St. Elsewhere.  It needs some editing and revising.

I’m switching between editing and a new project. I think I prefer two projects if i have to switch. Editing needs focus.