nekoii

*sighs* Maaaaaaaaaaaaan, damn. I missed the drama when it was hot and happening. Alas, that is life. I warned myself that university wouldn't be as easy as high school... But nothing beats getting reality smacked in your face. Like as if life didn't dish out enough shit to begin with. Heh. Pity Juka. I had wished I could've spammed you with reviews as the chapters were uploaded. Somehow I think, living through the cliffhangers would've made the chapters that much more worthy a read. You know, anticipation build up and all. But because of my delay, I was blessed (was it a blessing really) with the availability of all chapters (over 10 chapters! man!) to read immediately. It was easier to keep track of the dates like that. And easier to recall everything that was going on. Like reading a book. A god damned awesome book. PUBLISH DAMNIT. (ps: and publish a 'clean' version aka minus any sex scenes, so I may purchase without being paranoid that unwanted eyes may come across my possession of the book ) again. Pity. that you're probably somewhere in that blessed-yet-smog-filled country. I will go there someday. China's just one of those places you HAVE to visit before dying. right under Japan which is on the number 1 spot xD but everything aside. I can now properly understand why you love 'In the End' more over 'Heaven far away'. As epic as HFA is.... ITE trully preludes to it. both are epic in their own way. I will always love Kazuya, for how he's so much like Akira, but so so soo much more fortunate. and I will always love Shuusei, for how he is somewhat like Chitose, but so much more.... godsss there's no one word to describe that Hell Butterfly! XD Your characters, are most definitely lasting. and your plots, are works of history. Take it! Take all this praise and inflate! and explode into wondrous works of literary art! (coz art is a bang x3 ) Yeah.............. I don't know when I'll come by here again. Not much of a forum fan. And i hope that 'follow this' function sends me an email should you reply here. But I'll be on LJ, now and then, more often than here. ;3 You're damn interesting Juka. I wanna keep you, sorta understand somewhat how those psycho stalkers and kidnappers feel like. *evil grin* hehehehhe watch you back! Kidding XP But really... I'll keep my eye out for you ;3 Your stuff are forces to be reckoned with. All of the aff readers (who do not read your stories) are idiots !!! Coz I know all those idiots just look out for the pron. and when porn does not come soon or fast, they abandon ship. THEIR LOST! haha! I hope more sensible readers come on the scene, and give praise to where it's due. Adultfanfiction doesn't have to be about the porn. It's about the maturity and intensity of the text. Catch ya around ;3 - nekoii hiwatari

c.48. oh. this is rich indeed. CONFESSION TIME!!!! *ding ding ding* yaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!! 83 but then... wait... what.... i take back that yay. wait what... Leaving? ;___________________; what why? c.49 “Tell me, Shuusei-san, how does it feel to have someone love you so unconditionally, so without reserve, so without inhibition?” Now............... where have i read this line before. It feels so so familiar. and this weird weird weirdness with Shuusei and Kirin dancing around each other in a dance that looks more like a battle of evasion. and Akira in the middle of it all.... and Akira... Akira... Akira.... his pain... and the clear torture he's going through. I wonder. how long he'd put up with it... and how long till someone notices... and how long till he perhaps dies from the harsh treatment... but well.... people grow old... and soon they are no longer able to administer said harsh treatments.................... you know... this really got me thinking... it's really... pensive.... really... it reflects. it referes. to... well, a lot. all you gotta do.... in any case of abuse. is to hold on. because time will play its role.... and eventually... you'll realise, you have more freedom than you used to. ... and ah... so Chitose had Shuusei for company during those 10 years. That's nice.... so very nice for them =) and.............. it ended. loops. birth. death. and birth again. then things dissapear, and it loops back. The EPIC of great proportions has rendered me speechless. I shall come back later. and rant of it's AWESOMENESS.

c.45 oh my god.... he's seriously STUCK... does Shuusei have any idea that Kirin has NO idea? He should know, right? I mean, he's hell's butterfly for gods sake! and Kirin.... Kirin thinks that Shuusei shot Toru. And Shuusei thinks that Kirin was out to kill him and it's all fucked up! grah! and KoBAKAyoshi is being a... ARGH. GRAH! sheesh! jeez! I was getting to excited at the excitement that was to come just a few chaps ago. and now.... I'm reminded about just how FRUSTRATING reading your plot can get.... and yet, I still read.... I'm nuts. xD c.46. Bastard..... I can't even begin to think of any vile profanity that would do such a vile vile evil DEMON justice. This Konbayoshi.... Man, thanks! Seriously! This chapter has brought back to clear light what a drastedly vicious schniving creature he is.... URGH. it leaves a bad taste in my mouth. it leaves a bad feelign in my head. my eyes, argh my eyes! i want to scrub his name away! planning, scheming, .... He specialized in the long and dreadful kind of despair that would rob one of all their hopes before he would come in and offer himself as a god. .... this... THIS is precisely why i HATE HIM SO MUCH! you created a character that DEMANDS to be brutally murdered! oh god! madness! c.47. WHOAAAAAAAAAA!!! Taking a beating for the one you love.... WHOAAAA!! SAPPY! CLICHE!!! but.. but... SO FUCKING AWESOMELY GOOD!!!! some sappy cliche stuff, when done right, can be sooooo goood anyway you know.... my eyes are watering... and for some reason i feel that im swallowing back more saliva than usual... what the hell... ahhahahahhaha. and WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!! imagine that.... its like double hit. Kirin taking a beating for Shuusei. and it was Shuusei who comes in and saves him. this is some sort of new epic awesome sappy cliche? is it even 'sappy cliche' to begin with? it's just awesome. really. im baffled and speechless and have no idea why im so in awe and dumbfounded even. it's just awesome *w* seriously. im serious this time. my eyes are sparkling. really. *w* waaah~

I'm here! Man, doesn't the forum format look different. It's all red..... it's scary... anyway, I'm here coz.... THE IDIOT REVIEWING SYSTEM WARNED ME AGAIN! D< sheesh. so I leave part of the review here. “Mmm… yes… good night. Have a good sleep.” Have a good SLEEP??? XDD HAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! Eriko and Kirin make me laugh. Somehow, I think, they could be some-what friends on a different occasion. xD Restraint. Tolerance. Patience. HAHA! it has finally begun in earnest. COME ON!!! BRING CHITOSE AND SHUUSEI IN! :D

Do I hear whispers of a Chitose side story? *w* Read and reviewed ;3 Loved it Juka, it was great. And it wrapped up the wrap up even more tighter and neater. Feels so complete now. Yet there's space in this wrap for a little silver or two to slip out and cast their own nets I hope this story garners more attention somehow, it's definitely worth a read and maybe another read. ^_________^~ Hmmm~

Kirin is still young. And this is a great opportunity. Shit will brew up and hit the ceiling. But as messes are cleaned and new allies are made. Perhaps, the sun will rise again in the time of this young Yakuza boss. eh~ ;3 Hahahaha~ I'm so talking crap am I?

Argh! So Shuusei knows! So now I think, I can be more confident of my assuption... It is him.... *sighs*... Kirin is going to be heartbroken. And just before the reveal of the mole, Shuusei has some plans of his own up his sleeve doesn't he. something other than that operation... Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm~~~ Well, time will tell. Btw, I got the 1989 hit count! Yay, lucky sign? xD"

Once a few people clear the plate. xD Hah, you mean get killed don't you? No more athma attacks thank god, health is improving, in good time. I'm staring school again soon OwQ The story is seriously looking up up and up, this is the steep uphill of the rollercoaster~ *w* excitement brews~~~ let is boil over! Whooohooooots~ X3

Hi Juka. I'm better, just a bit of stuff still in my lungs. but. nevermind that. PLEASE GET THE NEXT CHAPTER OUT SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONN!!! IM DYING! IM DYING!!!!! if you got my review, you'd understand why I'm spazzing now. but. OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD JUKAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! WHAT THE FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRR KKKKKKKKKIIIIINNNG HHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!! this sort of betrayal, can only be revenged with COLD BLOODED TORTURE AND DISMEMBERMENT BEFORE MURDER!!!! i better stop now before i get another asthma attack... argh... to much excitement, my weak lungs cannot take it... x____x *gaaaaaaassspppsss*

Breathing is a good option. It calms you and helps you think, and thinking is good. I practice 'deep breaths' a lot, but sometimes, I also forget then get all angry and frustrated and do not breath properly xD" But I've realized another important thing too. Pain. You know how sometimes, there are moments where you feel so dead and empty and nothing is interesting and nothing is worth it. It took two painful occasions in a day for me to realize how important this feeling is, how it makes you feel, importantly - feel alive. This gave me a better opinion about 'pain', and how, despite that fact that it can hurt. It can be of a good thing too. (So... What ever had happen over there in that island, if it was painful, I hope you find something valuable/useful out of it. *patpat*)

Cuba, I've heard the name, but know nothing about that country really. Hope you have a good time and get fully recharged with this vacation! Anyway, I can see where you're going with Shuusei. This type, reminds me of the sort, that would have been a totally ordinary and unassuming person, had it not been for the events that unfolded in his life. But well, having this 'Shuusei' go through all that you haven't told us, makes his character the intriguing one it is now~ I'm liking him the most as of now ;3 Life's the same mess it is. But I do my best to stay cheerful. Just gotta keep getting up each time you get hit down, but having to keep getting up get's very tiring too.... ah well~

I'm really looking forward to their relationship development over the chapters since there's so much "grow used to each other, grow to understand each other, grow to understand themselves in relation to their relationship and then grow to understand where their relationship stands in the face of reality." for them to develop, I wonder, in which time frame will this story end. (when they have graying hair?) ^__^" hahaha~ And perhaps, we'll get to learn more about Shuusei's past too? *pat's you on the back too* It's good to be able to get into a flow of things! May it stay that way eh? ^__^ I have wandered way to far from my stream @__@ haha...