Keltiel

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Keltiel last won the day on May 20

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  1. I don’t usually like talking about myself and my issues, but I had to tell somebody. I just recently found out that I might have cancer. The doctors found a mass in/on my spleen about 6 months ago during an ultrasound relating to my recent surgery. Thinking that it may have been just a simple cyst, they ordered a second ultrasound for 6 months later (now). They’ve found that the lesion has gotten larger during that time.

    I still have a lot more tests to go through before they’re certain: MRI/CT, biopsy, etc… but the waiting and the not knowing has made me a complete wreck. I have no motivation to write, and honestly, every day that I don’t know what’s going on is just making me feel worse. Nobody in my life knows except for my live-in fiance, and he’s not doing very well with the news either.

    I’m sorry, I know I’m kind of rambling at this point… I’m just having trouble handling the situation.

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    2. Keltiel

      Keltiel

      Thanks for the well-wishes guys. When I get tests back I’ll be sure to update, but it will, unfortunately, be a few weeks at least. I'm just trying my best to keep calm for now.

    3. BronxWench

      BronxWench

      Vent to us, and lean on us all you need to. We might be an odd group, but we’re largely caring.

    4. CloverReef

      CloverReef

      Oh man that’s gotta be scary and frustrating as all hell. I hope you have some means of escapism you love to keep your mind occupied. I dunno if this kinda thing would help you, since your stress is of such a different nature than mine, and I can’ t begin to understand what you’ re going through, but for me, those little breathing gifs help distract me and clear my mind when things get overwhelming. 

      http://lifecdn.dailyburn.com/life/wp-content/uploads/2016/04/circle-gif-2.gif 

  2. I’ll keep that in mind, maybe I have to write an M/M pirate horror just for you (That actually sounds kind of fun, I’ll let you know if it happens)
  3. It’s kind of funny because some of my partner’s previous coworkers were like “I bet [Keltiel] is super vanilla in bed.”. He came home and told me and we had a big laugh about it because we’ve roleplayed way worse things than I’ve written on here so far. But I feel like, for the most part, the people who write on AFF are just everyday people who, in reality, would never indulge in the things they write about. I think that's why I like AFF so much, it's a place where you can read or write about your wildest thoughts or fantasies without (much) judgement. Sure, there are probably a small few who are legitimately… “troubled” but that’s true of any population.
  4. XD You don’t need to shut up, I enjoy the discussion and differing opinions. And you’re right that you do need to love what you’re writing, even if you don’t enjoy all of the content therein. That’s what I think makes great writers: making your characters into actual people and not just a flat reflection of what a person should be. I can only do MPreg if there’s a very good reason behind it, like magic or aliens or something plausible for the universe it’s in. Though I also don’t see myself writing it anytime soon.
  5. (I’ve been quiet because I’ve been enjoying reading the sprawling discussion ^^) I enjoy PWP every now and then (both reading and writing), mostly in fanfiction instead of original fiction, but most of the time I enjoy writing out a full story. I guess I don’t find it all that weird to write about because children are still sexual creatures. They explore their bodies and those of other children and do experience stimulation and orgasm. (I feel like a total weirdo talking about this. Let me clarify that I believe that fiction is fine, but obviously having sex with real children in real life is bad, m’kay) I can’t speak for Tcr, but for me, when I write about things that I don’t like or that don’t turn me on I try to put myself in the shoes of the person who does enjoy it and then write from that point of view. For instance, if I decide to write from the point of view of a drug addict, even though I’ve never touched (non-prescription) drugs in my life, I’d do a bunch of research, probably read about people who used to be addicts, and then try my best to write about the feelings and struggles of being on and off the drugs. While having experience and loving what you’re writing about do help your writing, it isn’t mandatory for good writing. After all, I doubt Michael Crichton ever had experience in bringing dinosaurs back from extinction and making a theme park with them
  6. That’s a really strange thing to lose readers over, but maybe I don’t understand because my own writing is so eclectic that I’ll likely never accrue a following of loyal readers. I do have a hard limit of nothing under the age of 5, which may seem strange (why limit it there, right?) but it’s the age when children start going to school, are becoming more independent, and are better able to express themselves and their wants. That said, most of my stories containing Minor1 (only one of which is posted here, or anywhere for that matter) only involve minors actually agreeing to participate. I don’t think I could write anything younger or incredibly violent or rapey. While I’m incredibly fond of reptile anthros, I don’t like feet. I can’t touch feet, I can’t have people touch my feet. Double knotting sounds either amazingly pleasurable or horribly painful, I think it depends on the size of the knots. Anyway, I think it’s pretty cool that you went through with the story even though it really wasn’t your thing.
  7. @Desiderius Price I get that. I roleplay a ridiculous amount with my fiance (homebrew with dice, but usually no hard character sheets) and sometimes a character or an entire story develops completely differently than you ever envisioned it to from the beginning. That’s the difference between writing a character as their own person versus just a cog in the story. I admire that a lot, I’ll probably take a look at yours and BW’s stories when I have a chance.
  8. It’s nice to know that I’m not just a complete weirdo also, I have lots of replies, so I’m just going to @ people, if you find it annoying, just let me know, and I’ll refrain from it in the future. @JayDee I definitely understand preferring to read someone else’s work. I think it’s because we, as writers, are too familiar with our own stories to feel the same thrill from them as reading something completely unknown from somebody else. After all, part of the excitement is from the unknown. Also, I never knew that Elijah Wood voiced Spyro, was that in the newer games? I stopped playing after the third one. Either way, I also agree that I never found him sexually appealing. @BronxWench I think that’s a really great way to look at it. You write what the story needs regardless of your personal feelings towards it. I feel like that a lot when I put my characters through the more extreme hardships; where on the one hand I feel bad that I’m putting my own creation through such issues, but also realising that it’s needed for the story to progress. (SparkyMuse, I don’t mean anything by leaving a reply out for you, I just don’t have a very good one.) @Melrick There are a few things that I absolutely won’t write about, scat also being one of them. I’m incredibly squeamish when it comes to feces and vomitus, and I could never write about or use them in a sexual nature. Also no minors under the age of 5 and no snuff. Killing/murder are fine (in a fictional sense), and their perpetrator getting off on it is fine, but I can’t force myself to write about it in a sexual manner. Like that one animation I accidentally watched where a dildo machine turned into a murder machine… just thinking about it makes me shudder. I’ve written rape a few times, I don’t get aroused by it, but I find that writing it is fairly cathartic. I have incredibly severe anxiety, but writing about horrible things actually seems to help relieve it somewhat. I think it’s because I’m actually pouring my anxiety into my writing, like how a lot of artists used their depression to better their art. Or maybe I’m just romanticizing it.
  9. Or is it just me? A lot of you probably don’t know me or my writing very well, but I’ll be the first to admit that most of my writing contains what I’ll politely refer to as “risque content”. I’m sure that many people who’ve skimmed past my stories disinterestedly have thought to themselves “by God, this person’s a weirdo.” But what may surprise them is that some of the things I write really don't get my jollies off. For instance, I have a story with Minor1 (an 11-year-old), but I’m not excited by pedophilia (I actually despise children, but that’s a whole different thing). Instead, I wrote the story because it was challenging, interesting, and refreshing to write from the perspective of somebody innocent. To write as somebody ignorant of the situation and to work through the complexity of both wanting to please the adult they admired while also feeling guilty about a situation that felt inherently wrong. In two of my stories, rimming comes into play. I’ve never personally tried it from either perspective, but I’ve seen it performed and I can’t say I’m a fan. However, in one story it’s literally the only option for lubricant and the other story is about making (mostly gay) porn. I write the characters as enjoying it, and I write it in a way to hopefully excite those who are reading my stories, but it really doesn’t get me off. These are only some examples, and since I’m trying to create a discussion and not a rant, I’d like to hear from you.
  10. I didn’t like the show very much the first few times I tried to watch it, but I actually got more into it the more I watched it. The first episode is kind of crappy compared to the later ones. I can’t say that the show is to everyone’s tastes; just like Family Guy, Futurama, and American Dad (to name the big ones) don’t appeal to everybody, but I personally found quite a bit of it funny, and even quote it with my fiance semi-often.
  11. Thanks again for answering, and so promptly! ^^
  12. Another code that I’m curious about: B-Mod. Does this only apply to stories where a character has a body modification done during the story? Or does it also apply to any story where a character has a body modification? I’m currently writing a story where a character already has a genital piercing, and I just wanted to make sure that it was tagged correctly.
  13. Completely understandable, I don’t expect it to pop up immediately. I edited the first post, so hopefully, it’s appropriate.
  14. I think this is the right topic? It seems like the “Movies” section is only supposed to contain live-action movies whereas anything animated seems to belong in the “Cartoons” section. If I’m wrong then feel free to ignore this post, but otherwise, there are a few sub-domains in the “Movies” section that should be moved: Ice Age Monster House Open Season Treasure Planet
  15. Subdomain – Cartoons Category – Zootopia Stories (not pair specific) http://cartoon.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600095082 http://cartoon.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600095378 http://cartoon.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600095382 More stories are planned.