In the End

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Chapter forty two has been posted.

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Chapter forty three has been posted. Konbayoshi Atsushi will see more writing time as the next few chapters unfold.

@Miko:

I am glad that you are enjoying the story! The story is 49 chapters long, so we're reaching its end steadily. Thank you for your review!

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Chapter forty five has been posted. Just four more chapters to go.

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Chapter forty six has been posted. I cannot believe how close we are to finishing this story! For those of you who read Heaven Far Away, this chapter certainly will give you more insight on Chitose's story. If there had been an interlude on Konbayoshi Atsushi, I like to imagine many truths would be overturned.

@Gslinger:

Yes, that certainly was the intent. If I could give each arc a title, this one would be named "doubt". After all that they've been through, and after they've been filling out their roles more and more, the jobs become them. I like to think of this as my little homage to the famous Milgram Experiment, in a much simpler fashion, of course. Shuusei has been with so many kumicho and none of them was caring; when a tail is put on you, usually, it's to kill you. His instincts are hard trained and after Kirin's outburst the last time they met, Shuusei's instinct told him it was bad news.

Actually, as for how they will be "in the end", there were mentions of it in Heaven Far Away, specifically in Chitose's interlude.

Thank you for the review!

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Chapter forty seven has been posted. The next chapter is the last chapter, and the one following will be a some sort of interlude/epilogue told from Akira's point of view.

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Chapter forty eight has been posted. One more to go.

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The last chapter has been posted and thus concludes this story. I want to thank everyone who has clicked, read, and reviewed; I can only hope that it was at least interesting for some of you. I've had this story in my head for a long, long time, even before Heaven Far Away. I'm the type of person who likes to leave the best for last, so perhaps that's why I decided to write this after Heaven Far Away after all. Or perhaps I just wan't quite ready yet at that time. From here on, I'll be going to a different country for work. There, who knows if I'll have reliable internet access. However, writing will never stop, but surely it will be while before I even think about returning to this genre.

@Gslinger:

I don't think they've ever forgotten that they can't do without each other. Perhaps it's because that knowledge is so strong they can't help but end in such a manner. I've always thought that when something exceeds moderation, love in this case, it just means there is insanity that's bound to follow. Their relationship has been rather unhealthy and detoxification is the best route, no? *laugh* Of course, some would say excess is another way. Thank you for your continued support and reviews!

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@Gslinger:

I'm sorry it made you cry! Eternal love comes in many forms, I'm sure you will find the form you want sooner or later. Thank you for your review!

[Calanthee]

Hope you will continue to write your overwhelming stories with your lovely characters, even though your away. If you stopped that would be even sadder! Good Luck and Prosper V, Gslinger

[nekoii]

I'm here! Man, doesn't the forum format look different. It's all red..... it's scary...

anyway, I'm here coz.... THE IDIOT REVIEWING SYSTEM WARNED ME AGAIN! D<

sheesh.

so I leave part of the review here.

“Mmm… yes… good night. Have a good sleep.”

Have a good SLEEP??? XDD HAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!

Eriko and Kirin make me laugh. Somehow, I think, they could be some-what friends on a different occasion. xD

Restraint.

Tolerance.

Patience.

HAHA! it has finally begun in earnest.

COME ON!!! BRING CHITOSE AND SHUUSEI IN! :D

[nekoii]

c.45

oh my god.... he's seriously STUCK...

does Shuusei have any idea that Kirin has NO idea? He should know, right? I mean, he's hell's butterfly for gods sake!

and Kirin.... Kirin thinks that Shuusei shot Toru. And Shuusei thinks that Kirin was out to kill him

and it's all fucked up! grah!

and KoBAKAyoshi is being a... ARGH. GRAH! sheesh! jeez! I was getting to excited at the excitement that was to come just a few chaps ago. and now.... I'm reminded about just how FRUSTRATING reading your plot can get.... and yet, I still read....

I'm nuts.

xD

c.46.

Bastard..... I can't even begin to think of any vile profanity that would do such a vile vile evil DEMON justice.

This Konbayoshi.... Man, thanks! Seriously!

This chapter has brought back to clear light what a drastedly vicious schniving creature he is.... URGH. it leaves a bad taste in my mouth. it leaves a bad feelign in my head. my eyes, argh my eyes! i want to scrub his name away!

planning, scheming, .... He specialized in the long and dreadful kind of despair that would rob one of all their hopes before he would come in and offer himself as a god. .... this... THIS is precisely why i HATE HIM SO MUCH!

you created a character that DEMANDS to be brutally murdered! oh god! madness!

c.47.

WHOAAAAAAAAAA!!! Taking a beating for the one you love.... WHOAAAA!! SAPPY! CLICHE!!!

but..

but...

SO FUCKING AWESOMELY GOOD!!!!

some sappy cliche stuff, when done right, can be sooooo goood anyway you know.... my eyes are watering... and for some reason i feel that im swallowing back more saliva than usual... what the hell... ahhahahahhaha.

and WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!!

imagine that.... its like double hit.

Kirin taking a beating for Shuusei.

and it was Shuusei who comes in and saves him.

this is some sort of new epic awesome sappy cliche? is it even 'sappy cliche' to begin with? it's just awesome. really. im baffled and speechless and have no idea why im so in awe and dumbfounded even. it's just awesome *w*

seriously. im serious this time. my eyes are sparkling. really.

*w* waaah~

[nekoii]

c.48.

oh. this is rich indeed.

CONFESSION TIME!!!! *ding ding ding* yaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!! 83

but then... wait... what.... i take back that yay.

wait what...

Leaving? ;___________________; what why?

c.49

“Tell me, Shuusei-san, how does it feel to have someone love you so unconditionally, so without reserve, so without inhibition?”

Now............... where have i read this line before. It feels so so familiar.

and this weird weird weirdness with Shuusei and Kirin dancing around each other in a dance that looks more like a battle of evasion.

and Akira in the middle of it all.... and Akira... Akira... Akira....

his pain... and the clear torture he's going through. I wonder. how long he'd put up with it... and how long till someone notices... and how long till he perhaps dies from the harsh treatment...

but well.... people grow old... and soon they are no longer able to administer said harsh treatments....................

you know... this really got me thinking... it's really... pensive.... really... it reflects. it referes. to... well, a lot.

all you gotta do.... in any case of abuse. is to hold on. because time will play its role.... and eventually... you'll realise, you have more freedom than you used to.

...

and ah... so Chitose had Shuusei for company during those 10 years. That's nice.... so very nice for them =)

and..............

it ended.

loops.

birth.

death.

and birth again.

then things dissapear, and it loops back.

The EPIC of great proportions has rendered me speechless. I shall come back later. and rant of it's AWESOMENESS.

[nekoii]

*sighs*

Maaaaaaaaaaaaan, damn. I missed the drama when it was hot and happening. Alas, that is life. I warned myself that university wouldn't be as easy as high school... But nothing beats getting reality smacked in your face. Like as if life didn't dish out enough shit to begin with. Heh.

Pity Juka. I had wished I could've spammed you with reviews as the chapters were uploaded. Somehow I think, living through the cliffhangers would've made the chapters that much more worthy a read. You know, anticipation build up and all.

But because of my delay, I was blessed (was it a blessing really) with the availability of all chapters (over 10 chapters! man!) to read immediately. It was easier to keep track of the dates like that. And easier to recall everything that was going on. Like reading a book.

A god damned awesome book.

PUBLISH DAMNIT. (ps: and publish a 'clean' version aka minus any sex scenes, so I may purchase without being paranoid that unwanted eyes may come across my possession of the book )

again. Pity. that you're probably somewhere in that blessed-yet-smog-filled country. I will go there someday. China's just one of those places you HAVE to visit before dying. right under Japan which is on the number 1 spot xD

but everything aside. I can now properly understand why you love 'In the End' more over 'Heaven far away'.

As epic as HFA is.... ITE trully preludes to it.

both are epic in their own way. I will always love Kazuya, for how he's so much like Akira, but so so soo much more fortunate.

and I will always love Shuusei, for how he is somewhat like Chitose, but so much more.... godsss there's no one word to describe that Hell Butterfly! XD

Your characters, are most definitely lasting. and your plots, are works of history.

Take it! Take all this praise and inflate! and explode into wondrous works of literary art! (coz art is a bang x3 )

Yeah.............. I don't know when I'll come by here again. Not much of a forum fan.

And i hope that 'follow this' function sends me an email should you reply here.

But I'll be on LJ, now and then, more often than here. ;3

You're damn interesting Juka. I wanna keep you,

sorta understand somewhat how those psycho stalkers and kidnappers feel like. *evil grin* hehehehhe watch you back!

Kidding XP

But really... I'll keep my eye out for you ;3 Your stuff are forces to be reckoned with.

All of the aff readers (who do not read your stories) are idiots !!!

Coz I know all those idiots just look out for the pron. and when porn does not come soon or fast, they abandon ship. THEIR LOST! haha! I hope more sensible readers come on the scene, and give praise to where it's due.

Adultfanfiction doesn't have to be about the porn.

It's about the maturity and intensity of the text.

Catch ya around ;3

- nekoii hiwatari

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Okay, so I lost my entire reply to this. *laugh* Let me see if I can remember what I said.

Since I was walking into uncertainty towards the end of this story, I actually uploaded one chapter per day. So perhaps it's a good thing that you didn't have to catch with that madness. *laugh* I thought about uploading everything at once, but I worried about AFF and whether it would be killed by me. Now that I am in China, and AFF is working, I sort of regret having rushed everything. If I had more time, I certainly could have editted the chapters a little bit better. Oh well, it is what it is, no one can change the past.

In the End indeed does prelude Heaven Far Away after all. Shuusei is a character whom I've been working on for the longest time. I actually wrote Heaven Far Away first as some sort of test, to see if it would work out. And when it did, all I wanted to do was to go back and work on In the End. Shuusei is one of the most interesting characters I have worked on. There is so many layers to him that I feel like I've not properly showed every layer to the readers. At the same time, Chitose and Shuusei are so similar, but Chitose would never reach Shuusei's level. The elder had been through too much to be able to look at this world with kind eyes anymore. With Chitose, there are many things that he does not know, even though he feelsl ike he knows everything; so perhaps there is still salvation for him to get rid of his past and start anew. It is unfortunate that Kirin and Shuusei are in the world they are in, if they weren't, I wonder if things would be different. Perhaps it's because they are in that world that they are attracted to each other. I like to think that both of them genuinely, truly and sincerely love each other, but situational factors deter them. Therefore, to keep their relationship meant keeping distance between them. If Shuusei had stayed, certainly what Shuusei told Subaru would come true and it would truly be a tragic ending. For that world does not allow them any trust, especially now that Kirin has control of Tokyo by himself.

Please, stop me. *laugh* I feel like I can write another 40 chapter fiction just explaining Shuusei and Kirin, and each one of them individually.

As for Konbayoshi Atsushi, I think he is the most interesting character I have worked with. I really, really want to write his end of the story, but that would mean getting into his head, and I fear that might not be good for my health. *laugh* By writing him, I feel like there will be so many more secrets that would finally see light. However, every story needs a character the readers love to hate, I think he fills this role perfectly.

Last but not least, thank you so much for sticking through with this story, even you are so busy already! I really do appreciate your reviews, comments, and feedbacks, they certainly let me know what I am lacking in and what I need to improve upon. I actually had so many ideas for new writing before I came here, but alas, teaching is no easy feat, I don't have much free time. Therefore, I fear they might have to be put in the backseat. As for publishing, I don't think I am good enough yet and I don't think I have a solid story to publish either. Certainly, I would love to publish one day. *laugh*

Good luck with everything on your end!