Turkaholic

My story has been hidden due to an overlarge author's note. It has now been shortened, however I have no idea how to go about getting my story accessible to the public again. My username is Turkaholic and the story is 'Tseng's Company' in the Final Fantasy area.

(Linked from the story) This story started out as what I thought was going to be a two or three chapter story - Reno gets called to Rufus' office, Rufus does the dirty on him, Reno goes kind of angsty and Tseng takes him under his wing. You have to bear in mind I'd only been in the fandom a few months when I did my first draft of chapter 1, and I didn't know as much about it as I did when I submitted it here. Anyway after writing the first draft I realised just how complicated this was going to be. There was too much of a story to fit into one or two chapters, and I wanted to go into Reno's past as well - as much for myself as for anyone reading it. The next thing I knew chapters were just rolling out from heck knows where in my mind, and before I knew what had happened I had a full blown novel-length fanfic spanning out in front of me and a story line which from this side of the paper at least seemed pretty involved. So I'm hella proud for how it turned out, oh yesh. Even if nobody else in the world likes it, I'll love it no matter what :3 Oh... and for anyone reading -yes I do think the red on Reno's face are scars. While we're on the subject, I just want to make this clear - The Reno I wrote here Is not the Reno from Advent Children. I'm taking this from the original. Every main character in Tseng's Company is based on how their personalities are in FF7. I started writing this waay before I even knew there was going to be a movie, so everything I got here isn't even remotely influenced by that. In fact, I dont much like the movie. I prefer the characters as they were in the original so if you've only seen the movie so far? Play the game. The graphics may be utter crap but the story and the characters are so much ...well, better xD So, no Advent Children Reno in this if thats what you were thinking - this is Reno from the original, and if anyone tries to tell me otherwise I'll rip their heads off and use them to go bowling *smile* Oh yeah - a couple of things that really bugged me in the reviews. Scuse me if it seems kinda bitchy thing to do, but these few things bugged me and I really wanted to have my say. 'You had Rufus abuse Reno, and you had Reno enjoy it.' Well this is pretty simple. Despite what you might think, I did actually do some research on this subject, I didn't just think 'hey what a great idea'. Its more than possible for the body to get aroused even if the brain doesn't want it to happen. I think most people who read it understood that was what was happening to him. Secondly - 'Reno could take Rufus' Probably. But in case you didn't notice, on all three occasions Reno wasn't on top of his game, AND also if you didn't notice - Rufus was blackmailing Reno. Fighting back would mean Reno lost his job, and if Reno lost his job, he'd be sent back to the slums. If Reno was sent back to the Slums, he would end up dead. Which would you prefer? Raped or dead? Finally... I know a lot of people have criticised the overuse of swearing. There are a lot of surplus 'fucks', 'damns' and other swearwords in there that seem a little... dislocated. I'd be the first to criticize that, since I agree - towards the end of the story there's a lot of that, and that's something I intend to rectify as soon as I have the time and patience to trawl through about eleven chapters and edit everything. As I've always said though - this is, and always has been, a work in progress. Unfortunately, the excess cursing is more down to my insecurity at the time about Reno's characterisation, rather than his actual character. So there, I'll put my hand up and say yup, I screwed up. As for the spelling mistakes and grammatical mistakes people have referred to - that's cause I don't have a beta reader. There are also a few made up words (i.e 'asshattedness') Trust me - they're MEANT to be in there. I've got a good grasp of the english language, and I already know these words don't exist. My idea of Reno though, has a very quirky style of speaking, and I like it. So nyeh Anyway onto the nice stuff - Thanks a lot to everyone who reviewed my story, from beginning to end, it kept me going, knowing that people were enjoying it a lot so THANK YOU! everyone who's reviewed (or who is hopefully still gonna review *hopeful smile*) have helped me. Seeing reviews up here have really helped me keep writing when at times I wasn;t sure I still could. I'm gonna go on to some individual thank you's from here - to some people who helped me along a lot, so here we go - Entrenous Thanks a lot. Seriously more than a lot - thanks to infinity and back for getting me into Tseng and Reno - into the Turks - into Yaoi, actually. If it weren't for her, I probably wouldn't have ever found this fandom. If you liked my story, it was influenced a lot by the first story of hers I read - Tough Love. Its on AFF, so check it out. Its one heck of a masterpiece. Renea Thanks a bunch sis, I promised I'd finish it for ya! She was the person I bounced ideas off from time to time. She helped me get Tseng into Reno's apartment when I couldn't figure out a way xD So thank Renea for your TxR smut - if it weren't for her, Tseng would never have even gotten near Reno's sofa, so thank her for it. ChibichibiNekochan For actually following the link to my journal and seeing my pissed-offedness at some stuff. Sending me an email that helped me get over the idea of stopping writing this fic. I'm hella glad for it now - thanks a bunch for both those emails, they meant a lot :3 Calliope purple for the incessant reminders that I had to put some smut into it. Hope you got all the smut you wanted, maybe you'll stop pelting me with fish now. apart from that all I really want to say on this note is thanks a bunch to everyone who reviewed. It really did help me pep up and become more determined to write. Hey, if you still want to leave a review - dont hesitate! Seriously I'm still writing here, it'll make me type that much faster if more people review this one, because then I'll want to show you what else I can do. Oh... and... There IS A SEQUEL, called 'Taking care of business' and the first few chapters are up there. Most of the cursing and spelling errors have been cleared up, and there's less dislocated paragraphs of babble to contend with so... yeah... go check it out. Updates are slow at the moment, but its not abandoned. Anyway thats all I have to say. Much luff x

Hey, I know exactly how you feel. I'm not a lesbian, I'm bi, but I do have a girlfriend and I know what you mean about people close to you not being able to understand. I write yaoi, it's a huge part of who I am and I wouldn't be without the feeling I get when I write. Some of my fanfic are the best pieces of writing I've ever done and I'm so proud of them, but I daren't show anybody in my family what I'm so proud of because I know they'll think I'm writing it for perverted reasons. It's hard to explain exactly, but it's more like a spiritual thing than a sexual one, though anybody will think I'm crazy if I try to explain that to them in real life. As for girlfriends, well... I had the amazing fortune of finding one that is a yaoi fan too, and she loves reading my stories and giving feedback, helping me work plotlines out and role playing scenarios with me for characterization. She's the most amazing, understanding person I could ever have asked to meet, and yaoi isn't something she looks down on me for, it's something we share. The best advice I can give to you is this: If this girl loves you, she has to love all of you and not just the bits she understands. If writing is a part of you that you can't live without, then you can't make yourself miserable by hiding such a talent. You have to make her realise that even if she can't understand what you're doing, she has to respect it. If she can't? Well then you guys have problems. Big ones. And you're gonna have to decide: if she can't respect one aspect of your personality, what happens if another one comes along that she can't? Your family is another matter. Your partner by default should respect your interests, but your family doesn't have any strings attached as far as that's concerned. If they're open minded, you could probably tell them that you're writing 'gay romance' but not go into detail, maybe if they're interested let someone read any chapters that aren't explicit to introduce them to the idea. At least then they'll have some experience with your writing and you don't have to hide it. Just... don't let them read any hardcore sex scenes or it might not go exactly as planned... You shouldn't have to feel ashamed for such a big part of your life. Seriously. You need to talk to your girlfriend and get all those skeletons out of the closet. If writing yaoi makes you happy, why should she complain? Good luck x

Chapter three is now (finally) up there, just to inform anybody who might be waiting. Unfortunately no smut yet, but its getting there.

I'm unfortunately in the same boat as you at the moment, so I know exactly how you feel. I hate working around people. It's not that I don't like people - if I didn't like them then I wouldn't be a writer, but I just can't seem to connect with them. It's as though I'm on a different frequency to the rest of the population. I just have to pretend I'm on their frequency to get by in the world. Unfortunately, getting a job as a writer - as angeicmar said - is one of the most difficult things in the world of employment. There are just too many budding authors out there to be able to stand a good chance at getting what you want. It's a sadly bleak outlook on things but it's the truth. The fact is that unless you're extremely lucky, freelancing or simply writing fiction for yourself might have to happen in your spare time. I've been forced to get a full time job at McDonalds to sub my outgoings this semester, but I prefer to look at it as a sort of feild experiment for my writing. As long as I know that I'm not going to make a lifelong career there, I'm fine. I thought it would damage me in some way too, but really getting a mundane job is simply a means to an end, and as long as I look at it like that it doesn't drag me down. Getting a writing job straight away is really not much of an option, though do try, and you may prove me wrong :3 Finding a job just to pay your overheads for now is probably your best bet, while at the same time writing like crazy for any and every magazine that you can put your heart into writing for. If you do happen to get a job in retail or the public sector, really your soul is a lot tougher than you're giving it credit for: If you keep that creative fire alive, you have nothing to be afraid of.

Just to inform anyone who's interested that my latest chapter of this story is now up. Reviews are hugely appreciated :3 -Turkaholic x

I've just started a new SasuNaru fanfiction. It's going to have multiple chapters, but there's a better description in the Author's note on the opening page. Title: There's something I never told you Author: Turkaholic Summary: Sasuke returns to Konoha for Naruto, only to find the blond with someone else. Will they ever end up together? And what ghosts of the past has Sasuke brought with him? Rating: uhm... adult? Pairings: KibaNaru, SasuNaru, ? x Sasuke Spoilers: Episodes 125 onwards. Feedback: Huuuuuuuuugely appreciated. URL: http://naruto.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600095053 Thanks a lot n_n Turkaholic ~x

Naruto. I think the edit date is changing, but for some reason my fics once I've edited them aren't coming up on the Naruto 'latest' page. I don't know whether it's just that the latest page doesn't update instantly anymore.

Hey there. I know this question may have already been asked at some point, but as I don't use the forums very often, I'm going to ask it again. Scream at me, if you've already answered it. I was just wondering what exactly the setup for the latest page is nowadays? When we were on the old server, I'd edit one of my chapters or the story description, and when I visited the latest page, it would be there, right at the top of the page. Now I've been editing my chapters and my description, and I've even added a new chapter yesterday, but it never appeared at the top of the 'latest' page. I'm just wondering why. Is it that edited chapters no longer qualify to be on the page, or is it just code that's gone wrong?