shinigamiinochi

The biggest turn on for me is the breaking, or distortion, or sexual convention. It's why yuri, yaoi, futanari, and BDSM excite me and vanilla het does absolutely nothing for me. I absolutely love futanari, which explains my love for Bible Black. One of my favorites is a hentai manga called 'Secret or Your Hearts' by Hinemosunotari. It's about a girl who has a penis and a boy who loves to crossdress. Yes, the girl is on 'top' and the boy is completely a boy through the whole experience. I've never seen this in mainstream hentai. Whenever a boy is penetrated by a girl, it is usually just a finger to get him in the mood, or the boy has temporarily been turned into a girl. But mostly, futanari entails yuri action, not het. So, if anyone out there shares the same interests, I suggest checking the comic out.

I've been accused of having absolutely no boundries, and I get a mixed bag of reviews, some hate what I write because it's rare and explicit, others love that I write stuff that few want to even try. I guess I'm able to because I'm partially writing for myself. Sure, I have moments when I question if there is going to be a lot of backlash for my stories, but I try to not stray from something just because some people might find it offensive. Basically, I'll write anything if it's in my ability, and interest, to do so. When you're into BDSM and vanilla sex is actually a turn off at times for you, you have to push the bar more than a few times.

I used to write whatever I wanted, whenever I was inspired, but then my list of unfinished fanfics became so overwhelming, I had to stop. Now I just write down notes and plot bunnies for later use, if I ever get around to finishing something.

Awhile back, I had deleted most of my fanfiction from a site and a reader wanted to find me, but the site had blocked the links to other archives, so this reader did a search on my name on yahoo. I recieved an e-mail from this reader stating that some of my stories were on sites that I hadn't listed as archives. Out of curiousity, a bit annoyance, I decided to check it out myself. Fortunately, all but one of the sites seemed to be out of order, but the one site that was still working, I couldn't log onto for some reason, something called pashtoblog.com. I guess in situations like this, and your own, no matter how much it bothers you, there is really nothing you can do and let it lie, but I don't think you're out of order by being upset by it. I understand it completely.

well, I have yet to see any surveys or experiments solely revolving around fanfiction readers, so you can't say that it's a 'fact', only what you believe, and stating that five of your friends aren't interested in something is not a statistic. Most people surround themselves with friends that think like they think, so it's hardly a compelling argument. However, the sale of 'non-vanilla' or 'extreme' pornography is a pretty good selling point, at least in America. In the hentai world, the more graphic the hentai, the greater the sell. Sales for vanilla pornography don't do very well in most places. The problem with ff.net is that there is no age requirement, so you get a lot of underseasoned authors. I read a ton of fics there and it takes a very long time for me to find a well written one because there's so many younger authors who haven't practiced their art long enough. That's not to say that this site doesn't have the same problem, but because of the need for 18+ aged members, there are less authors and thus less to weed through to find a good work. My biggest problem with ff.net is the censorship. It's not that there isn't mature work there, it's that the rule for what can be there is so vague, it's hard to define what is appropriate. Censorship makes authors temper their work. It's like a painter who has to second guess every color he/she uses. I like to free write, what I want, when I want, otherwise, it feels more like a school project than something I enjoy. That's what I love about aff. It doesn't matter about the sex, I just feel like I have more freedom here. That doesn't mean that aff doesn't have it's share of problems. There's a smaller readership and fewer reviews. I like ff.net's 'favorite author/story alert' ideas, because even without reviews, it gives the author an idea of who is reading. But, the reviews I get here actually sound more mature. Most of what I get on ff.net is 'continue' or 'I liked it'. I've also gotten more flames on ff.net than aff based on homophobia. I feel like there's a little bit more respect here, because people know that there are a lot of mature themes here. I know that I have the chance to stumble across something that I don't agree with, but since this is an adult web site, I know I must act like an adult around those things. Ff.net on the other hand feels like a lot of authors get offended very easily. However, there also quite a few wonderful authors on ff.net, too, at least in the Gundam Wing fandom that I read and I enjoy ff.net for that, because I get that not all great authors are 18+. I just wish that ff.net had an affiliate site for those of us who can handle mature themes. I started reading 'adult' works when I was twelve and it never destroyed me. It was what got me started in fanfiction in the first place, though I do get that there should be a barrier between kids and what we do as adults, I just also think that the kids that know what they are being protected from should have a choice. I don't like that ff.net didn't give an alternative, or define what is acceptable beyond 'mature themes' which can be anything from sex to getting shot in the head, yet the other ratings give slightly better definitions. They should have created a sister site so the people whose works got deleted didn't feel like they were being cast out as something undesirable. Ff.net is 'soft core' simply because their is no such thing as total freedom when you post there. Sure, there are some mature things, but when you feel like you're under 'big brother's eye', how can you not second guess what you write, or at least not be afraid that one day you'll get deleted? I love ff.net and aff for different reasons, I think they're great fanfiction archives, but they both have problems, like any archive. Until you can prove, with documented facts, that most adults don't like hard core smut, saying that they don't is a lie. Here is a fact: more people read my hard core work here than my softer fics on ff.net. Hell, the fic I have with the most hits is an anthology based on nothing but sex. Now, I can't speculate what that fact means without delving further into readership and other statistics, but it is a fact. You can't dispute facts as a rule. You can dispute the conclusions we make through facts, however, and I dispute that your friends not liking hard core means that a majority of adults don't like it, because I just don't see that. It doesn't mean that a majority of adults do like hard core, either. I have twelve friends, plus my cousin, his husband, his ten brothers, and my cousin's friends, all different ages from all around the world, who all love hard core smut and visit sites like aff and buy extreme porn. Does this mean that a majority like that sort of thing? No, it doesn't, I'm just making a point that personal statistics hardly make up fact. If you want to attempt to create a statistic for backing up your idea, go out into the real world and make a blind study. It'll be much more compelling than 'well, my friends think this way.' Blind is always more realistic than personal when it comes to creating a theory. Morbidfantasy is right, you're coming to a forum and attacking the site based on things that are not fact, but your personal beliefs, which you have yet to have any real evidence to back up with. You're being very disrespectful by calling us all perverts. It's just as bad as saying that 'everyone' that goes to ff.net is a child. When you say that everyone who visits this site just likes smut and are perverts, you sound like a troll and you're not exactly making anyone see your point of view by parading your beliefs as fact when you have no real proof at all. I don't hate ff.net and I don't hate aff, I like and dislike things from both sites, but you just sound like ff.net is so great and aff is some porno site that caters to degenerates. Not exactly winning over any sympathy here. Did you really think that bashing a site that you're currently visiting is going to get a bunch people saying 'mm, hm, you know what, you're right!' We're here for a reason, and so are you. If you think that aff is just for perverts, then what are you doing here anyway?

Well, besides the fact that you're still ignoring that Solstice has absolutely nothing to do with my post about long sex scenes, that fic was posted differently than the others. Each chapter was hundreds of pages long, so I decided to update in tangents, within the chapters, about thirty pages at a time. And, hey, guess what? Posting that way isn't against any rules and what the guy accused me of (merely editing to keep the fic at the top of the page) isn't possible. I even had a moderator confirm this. If you want to make an argument, and call me both an idiot and a liar, at least go beyond my original fics, as it appears you jumped to conclusions without even looking at all my stories. If you had, you would have noted that I have a few fics with more than just two reviews total. I obviously wasn't refering to a fic that has very little sex in it at all.

Actually, I WASN'T referring to Solstice, at all, if you had been paying attention to my post at all. I mentioned a story that had a sex scene with 87 pages, most of it kink. What exactly was in Solstice that had kinky sex scenes? None. Instead of bashing me, could you at least pay attention to what I had actually said, and not make assumptions? I do have other stories, and not all of them are archived here. It makes you look foolish by referencing something that doesn't even track with what I said. Oh, and Tenpenny wrote a review after everytime I posted, not exactly troll behavior. I know a lot of people don't like my originals, I barely reference them anymore and Solstice was hardly sexually driven. Considering my gundam wing fanfiction, my originals are actually very tame.

Also, the amount of reviews and hits you get is NOT directly equivalent to an author's talent. In some cases, it's the exact opposite. I've seen terrible stories get over 30 reviews, 5,000+ hits and incredible stories only get one review and 100 hits. I post because I love writing and I read a lot of fanfiction. The pleasure I get from reading, I hope to give to my fellow fanfic lovers. It's also because I hope to be a novelist one day and the more I practice, the better I get. I know this is true because I read stuff from three years ago and think about how bad it is and realise just how much I've improved, just by writing a constant stream of fanfiction. Of course, I think all of us writers are also doing this for an ego boost. To coin a phrase, humans are ego monsters, we do everything we do to feel good about ourselves. Sure, if I didn't get any reviews, I'd continue to write, but I also admit that I write more frequently, and more energetically, knowing that I will get reviews. I also can't deny that I feel the best about my abilities when I get praise from readers. But, I challenge any author to say that they don't feel great when someone tells them that they love their work. It only becomes a problem when you become the sort of person (the kind that most hate) that will actually hold a story for ransom in order to get more praise. No one likes this author, I've met a few myself, and it's very immature and irresponsible. I've always viewed my fanworks as children. If you're not willing to nurture them and see them through, no matter what, you shouldn't be putting them out there. It's one thing to lose interest in a story, but to actually make the conscience descision to not write, simply because a majority of the people reading aren't saying how good it is, isn't something I can condone. There are still people looking forward to seeing the end of the story, whether they write a review or not. I could never leave a fanfic unfinished, it would eat at me too much.

Longest sex scene I've ever written? 87 pages, but it involved a lot of kinky stuff, not just straight up vanilla sex. Still, I think only one person complained, but I got multiple reviews (like 8 or 10) saying that it was the hottest thing they've ever read, so I don't think that the length, or being overly descriptive is a turn off.

If I was hungry and living on the streets, I wouldn't care what the people giving me food's intention was. Sometimes, the ends do justify the means, and not all Christians help the poor to 'convert', some believe in what they are preaching, that helping people in need is what God wants them to do. It doesn't really matter what the reason is, sometimes. Sometimes, what help is given is worth the reason. Not every advance made by religion has been evil, some of it has been good. It's a bit like war creating the computers we're typing on right now or the medicines that help people everyday. In end, genocide is genocide, and who are you to decide who lives and dies? Your approach doesn't sound any more different than those 'religious types' who think that the world would be so much better if all gays were eliminated. They have reasons, too, but they sound just as hollow as yours. Hate is hate and the end result is exactly the same: why should people, who think they are doing the right thing, die just because of what they chose to believe, because you think you have the world's best interests at heart? Sounds like the mentality of so many genocidists before. I despise that sort of righteous philosophy of anyone, regardless if it is due to religion or economics. My family is protestant, and maybe I do hate the things they believe, but they still raised me and they still do good things. I also have a lot of Pagan friends and they have never pushed their religion onto anyone. Why should you be allowed to say they 'need' to die? Isn't your spewing hate more harmful than their religion?

Well, there are probably a lot of facts missing from that article, but based on what was there, I'd say that the kid had at least a basic idea of what he was doing. The babysitter stepped on his foot and in retaliation, he premediatedly got out a gun and shot him. Maybe the kid didn't know what the gun would do, but why go, purposefully, for that gun? My cousin's four year old knows exactly what guns do, she knows they're bad and that they 'make things stop moving', she even claims to hate them because they make people hurt. Children do have the capactity to understand these things, but that doesn't mean that all of them do. If the kid knew, even a little, what the gun would do, that it would cause pain, it's premeditated assault. I agree that the parents should be made responsible for the easy access, though. It's like gun shops selling guns to people who don't meet the criteria just to make some money, it's irresponsible and they should share in the guilt of the crime as giving access to the weapon.

The the Simpsons are now considered 'Persons' and are subjected to real life rules like child pornography, what will the law do next? Charge Homer with prolonged child abuse?

So basically you think that killing off a religious group will make the world better? Isn't that, word for word, what Hitler preached? I am one of those people that thinks poorly of religious institutions, but they're not all bad. Yes, I'm an atheist, but what about all those Christian groups that go out and help the poor? Just because you have religion, does not make you an asshole. True, there are some bad eggs like Chick and Phelps out there that I would just love to see burned alive, but there are people like that everywhere. Newsflash: prejudice has nothing to do with religion. It just uses religion as a shield, but even people without religion can be judgmental assholes. It's pretty much human nature and getting rid of religion will only make us find another outlit for our hatred.

Just think of what could happen if these people focused on REAL children that are being abused and not some drawings. In my state, it's still legal to beat a child with a belt. Somehow I think that's more damaging than Simpsons porn.

as my college composition teacher is constantly ranting: details, details! No, really, getting a review like "I love your work, write more!" is great, but when someone writes "I love 'this particular scene'" it really makes my day. It's nice to know what people like and dislike specifically.

no offense taken at all. I'm sorry about what happened to you and I think it is very admirable that you got back on your feet. I agree that fiction can't make you do anything. I've watched almost every horror movie ever made, but the most violence I've ever done to anyone or anything was in the seventh grade when I hit some girl over the head with a violin (long story). I have anger issues, yes, but I know the line between reality and fiction. If someone doesn't, it isn't the fault of the fiction, they would have done violence with or without the fiction.

^^ Thank you. I'm going to keep my poetry on there, but I'm probably never going to update on ff.net again.

Personally, I didn't see it as any different as rimming or swallowing after giving a blowjob, but if you see those as 'gross' I can see how it might gross you out.

Heh, I've been putting that in stories for years. Didn't know there was a word for it, but now I know, and knowing is half the battle.

I heard that EIGHT times today! I got so annoyed with it, the first month that I was working, that every time I hear it, I respond: No, it's not free, it's just so much money that we couldn't fit the number on that itty-bitty tag. Jackasses.

I had that happen to me a few times. The most recent was an immature review that just pissed me off so bad, I couldn't write for several days. I write a lot of rape, you just have to skim my author's page to get that. One of my most recent fics paints an accurate portrayal of what constant abuse can do a person and had several graphic abuse and rape scenes. In a recent chapter, the character is finally out of the situation, and to show how this character is getting stronger, he is almost raped, but finally fights back and stops it, something he was never able to do before. As soon as this person read this chapter, they sent me a review whining about how they were reading this fic JUST to see if I would stop writing rape and that the scenario I had written was unrealistic. I gave this person the unrealistic thing, despite the fact that it's fiction, not a research manuel, and there were several things in the story that were more unrealistic. However, I couldn't get past their reasoning for reading the fic. If you know that an author writes something continuously that you're not comfortable with, but then keep reading their stuff, just for the hope that they might change, I'm sorry, that's not only severely immature, it's a bit insane. It sums up an abusive relationship rather well, ironically. 'Hey, I hate it when you hit me, so I'm going to stick around in this sucky relationship until you stop hitting me, because I believe you can change, despite the fact that you have never said that you wanted to change in the first place.' I try not to let nonsensical reviews like get me down, but I guess I'm too sensitive, because every time I get a review that sounds like I'm getting scolded for someone else's personal beliefs, or something that should be damn obvious from the start of the fic, I feel like crying in frustration, or perhaps slamming my head into a wall. Criticism is one thing, but it seems like some people have completely lost all common sense and deem it necessary to beat on the author because their little world isn't the way they want it. I hate het in my fandom, but if I know that an author writes a ton of het, do I write them a review saying how much I hate het and hope they will write yaoi? No, I get on with my life, because I don't have time to waste on something I don't like, and I read something I know I WILL enjoy.

Here's my author's page on this site: http://anime2.adult-fanfiction.org/authors.php?no=1296834503 Gundam Wing is an old fandom, so there aren't a lot of new sites for it. Most of the archives are by invite only (which I will never get). The last time I was in a web ring, I was wrongfully accused (despite the blatant impossibility of my doing this) of plagariazing, so I don't want to go through an aggrievance like that again. I did a search for gundam wing archives, but have yet to find one like gundam wing universe, where you can just post your own stuff, no matter where you are. I used to think of my stuff as non graphic, because I've read far worse, but apparently, my readers don't agree >.> Oh, yeah, and Gundam Wing was the best Gundam in my opinion. It was one of the more serious ones. I tried to get into Gundam Seed, but it never clicked for me, probably because I was watching the Cartoon Network version. But, the Gundam Wing fandom is one of those lovely fandoms where all the het fics are labelled 'NOT yaoi', because the yaoi fandom is so much bigger than the het one (it's an anime where the main characters are five, attractive, teenage guys, so naturally people are going to go there). I think I'm cursed, really. Two of the sites I used to post at have died.

Sex is 1/10 physical, 9/10 psychological, some can go absolutely crazy for one thing, and some another, though it's the same stimulation. My cousin has the same problem with kissing and when his husband plays with his nipples. Obviously, he's a guy, so he's not as sensitive as a girl, but according to him, his imagination plays a bigger role in sex than his nerves do.

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