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LOL because she's Catholic! Most are pretty homophobic, if they're the conservative kind. Hell, I used to be, before I became an atheist. I thought it was "unnatural" and didn't think my point of view was in any way offensive or illogical. No, she will never know I write this stuff! Man, I can imagine the reaction. She probably would never let me see her kids again! I'm wondering if I should respond to your Crave reviews here. I don't see much of a point of making a new thread for Crave, since you're like the last reader. The lone ranger, lol. I hadn't really thought about the kids knowing Hugh from school. He was supposed to be there a year and then follow Jamie to Boston. At least I think that was the story. But I've totally forgot the plot. Pretty sad, huh?

Hmm maybe I'll check out that site. Babysitting was fine. I got like two sentences and then they woke up. I had to sit through an episode of Veggietales. I wish my sister weren't so Catholic and they watched Spongebob Iike normal kids. I love Spongebob! But I think she's afraid that Patrick is gay. But now I'm home and I've gotten some real work done. I actually put together an outline this time. I usually use the songs as a mental outline but this time I actually typed "outline" like I was back in high school or something.

I think you can listen to the captcha instead of trying to figure it out via looking at it. Try it out and see! Thanks for letting me use your idea. I'm pretty careful with intellectual property stuff. I'm curious, what website is it that interviewed you? I'm going to try and write today while I babysit. My nephews are asleep for a couple hours (hopefully, fingers crossed) while my sister and the rest of her brood are at a birthday party.

@Lisa: lol. You're so funny. I probably wrote the journal parts too fast, but I'm also too lazy to change them. I was trying to portray Luke as sex-crazed here because I want his character to have a tendency to mask his sexuality in public, but release it in private. No pun intended. His journal serves as a way to exercise his sexuality in a "safe" manner. I'm glad you gave me that feedback, I think it's really useful. I'll have Fico address that in the next chapter, if you don't mind? I think it's a good observation. It's so funny you like Crave so much. I think it's pretty rough, as far as drafts go. It's also heavily concentrated on sex, which I think is a drawback. Crave draws a ton from my own experience with bulimia and college. I think maybe that's why some readers get into it, because it has little details that stem from real memories and feelings. Oh and Lisa, thanks so much for the Crave reviews. I'm a reviewophile, just like all the other authors on this site!

Ok I fixed the "prostrate" problem. LMFAO. So embarrassing. Too lazy to fix the Colin problem. No one's reading that story anymore, right? Except Lisa.

Hey Lisa, this is about Crave again. Um, that's frustrating that the discrepancy re: Colin is still there. I know I fixed it before, along with the prostate spelling. It's like the story has my old edition in it or something. >

This is directed to Lisa for the recent reviews of Crave: haha You know what happened? I accidentally added Ch 14 of OTW to Crave. So it jumped up in the fic archive. I hope the mods don't get mad! Um, I know I had a prob with prostate but I thought I'd fixed it. I guess not! thanks for noticing!

@Jade: Thankyou for the feedback. I'll try to figure out how to address it. @RitsuOuO: Thankyou for reading it. I write it for you guys! @wolfluv: THANKS!

@Misakixusagi: Nice to see you back! Thanks @wolfluv: Hmm no. He's just jealous. @Lisa: I feel like I wasn't gone that long! Um, I added several elements, paragraphs mostly. They were just explanations of what Fico was feeling like, thoughts going through his head and stuff. Yeah I felt weird just cutting Joaco off. I think he's not such a bad guy, just a little misdirected. Yeah no hanky panky for him from Fico. Poor guy! I first heard my friend say frawesome in like 2009. Never really heard anyone else say it though. You could check the Urban Dictionary. Yeah Luke's not going to be happy after that convo. I wasn't very pleased with this chapter but I can't really think of a way to make it less sucky. It doesn't have much action in it, it's mostly filler between Ch12 and Ch14. I think you'll like Ch14 better. It's written from Luke's perspective (mostly) about his first impression of Fico, from his journal. I'm going to have a lot of fun writing it, I bet.

@Tahylor: Dick slap. lol. Now I totally have to have someone dick slap Fico. Or vice versa. Glad you enjoyed the cop scene, it got me in trouble! (kind of). Mods made me add the tag RapeFic for that. I didn't remember to add the tags HJ and RapeFic for Ch 11 so they hid the story for a bit. They also asked for "Other" to be added, not sure what for but I'm thinking for "course language" lol. I could just ask an archive mod, but I don't really want to bug them about something so trivial. I guess I could have separated all those ideas - viagra, kinky cop, etc into separate chapters but it didn't flow naturally that way. I kind of wanted that night to be a clusterfuck, as Fico described it, because he had been anticipating a wonderful night and it's always fun to mess with an MC's head.

It actually would have been extremely useful when I was in college. I had such a hard time compiling notes from 20+ sources, 30+ sources for larger projects. In undergrad I was just trying to figure out how to write, and creating references and compiling notes was a huge pain because it takes away so much time from actual writing. In grad school I routinely had at least 20 references per paper. And then if you have a master's thesis, with minimum 60,000 words, well it's honestly frightening thinking of the reference list. This kind of application seems to me like the invention of using the calculator versus using logarithmic tables. I can't, however, entirely give up on notebooks, since I'm not from the Google generation and I have this peculiar need to write with a pen and paper . I was taught to type using a type writer, so when personal computers came out I was so grateful because I was horrible about mistakes and using the white out. Using dial-up internet became common when I was in 5th grade or so (1994/5 I suppose) and by then I had already been both doodling and writing little stories. Well, mostly doodling but it seemed an essential activity to me at the time! Just seeing a notebook in a stationary store still makes me want to write. On a tangential note: Remember when children used to be taught cursive handwriting? I don't know when they stopped, but my nieces are only being taught regular script. This, for some reason, really bugs me.

Well I downloaded it and man, it's very complex. There's a ton of things you can do with it. It reminds me of learning how to use a Smart Board, which is useful but very annoying at first. I imported my story Off the Wall in it, and since I only have 12 chapters finished it didn't take to long to split it into separate chapter-folders. Now I'm filling out my character templates, which is so useful. After I finish that I'm moving onto the location templates. It has all these metadata fields you can create, which is a librarian's wet dream , and a dedicated research section, which is definitely the part that is going to be the most useful to me, since this fic I'm writing has like...three files I'm using: locations, Spanish dictionaries, and music. I'm so excited to make a few new documents, which are crazy anal retentive but that's the way I roll: a document that has the temperature and weather history for LA, one for my published quotes section, and maybe a music lyrics file. And a guitar chord file, although I've only researched one song to get the guitar chords for. I'm not even sure why I did that. But one of the character's is a guitarist and I thought, I really want the chords for that song! For anyone interested, I used Chordify.net. I'm a little bit sick of researching so much for something that's not that important in the large scheme of things, but it's become an obsession.

That does look really useful. Have you tried it? Or Scrapple? I could have really used Scrivener when I was writing grant proposals and patent applications!

As a child, I always hated Barney. I think I need to get this into my story somehow.

Ok, so I have a serious problem with personal organization. That extends to writing, and I wonder if anyone else has this problem? I use notepads to write down ideas when I am struck by them during the night, at the gym, etc and it's annoying to open my laptop or write a note on my phone. But then I have these notepads everywhere, and I have to make sure I look at them before writing so I don't forget something important. I also keep a little box where I stuff things that give me ideas/inspiration. Then there's the whole use of Word. I just open a regular document to write in, but have several other accompanying documents and a spreadsheet where I put research. But I also put research and records of characters (like full names, descriptions, etc in case I forget) on the bottom of my main document. This is starting to really annoy me. I mean, I put all those in its own labeled folder inside my AFF folder, but still. Now I even have a section at the bottom of my main document that has quotes and page numbers of published fic that gives me ideas. This is getting out of control! Do you think I should have a separate document for different types of research so I don't put it all in the main doc? Is there a word processing program that anyone prefers? I just use good old fashioned word, currently the 2011 Word for Mac. I haven't gotten the 2013 version yet. Is Publisher useful?

Man I'm trying to figure out what to do about the lack of emo development! Argh I need a writing class. But I'm too embarrassed to tell someone IRL I'm writing "light porn" lol. Hmm. Just thinking, I wouldn't be able to write this w/o reader reviews. So I guess it actually helps authors if you review. (Duh!) Maybe I should read more fanfic. I'm such a perfectionist (it's actually a big problem for me) that errors bug me enough to put me off reading something. I read a review on goodreads that one of my favorite published authors had errors in her latest book that I was dying to read, and so I didn't even bother looking at it. Yeah, it's that bad! Actually, I probably wouldn't even read my own fic due to the errors. I hate the first paragraph of this story but I'm not sure what to do about it. If I were writing this on paper with pencil, I'd erase it so hard that the eraser nubs would fly everywhere and the paper itself would get a hole in it. I want to burn this story. It's so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I need a blog to put this kind of crap down w/o annoying readers who are just trying to see review responses!

It is pretty awesome to be able to interact with readers. I heart AFF . Yeah, in school I got straight A's in everything EXCEPT physics. I remember the first A- I got was in the third term of my required general physics course. We were doing lenses or some stupid shit. I drew the lens arc wrong on the test, I mean the refracted light hit the wrong point. Damn can you believe I remember that exam? It was a decade ago! Physics is my bane. Physical chemistry was SO EFFING HARD for me, because I couldn't get my head around the probability portion of it. I really enjoyed calculus, as much as anyone can enjoy math I suppose. It has this great logic to it, and it so useful in the real world (I'm thinking engineers). Don't get me wrong, it was a bit hard to figure out at first. But after a while it became one of my favorite classes. I do love writing too, but it's a lot of hard work. Maybe because I research as much as I write. I should probably spend less time researching and more time writing, eh?

@FD: I can't sleep so I'm responding to this at almost 2 am. Ack! lolz you fell asleep on your phone? Sounds like me! Yeah I can't believe you took an entire day to write a review. Kind of too much effort, don't you think? Get some sleep, girly! I really liked your last review, it was awesomesauce. I suppose just remember this story is steeped in the absurd, and Fico really doesn't like to get all emotional. He just shoves it inside until he has a big burst of anger/sadness. Anger comes next chapter. Part of him just wants to be taken care of, to be babied. So that was kind of his first reaction to Luke. But also, he's afraid to open up to Luke, to kiss him, to be with him, because Luke is so closeted and he's really, really afraid of rejection, the more so since his mom kicked him out. Yeah, kisses to come in later chapters. Hold yer horses! Patience is a virtue.

@FD: Oh such a good review! I love it when a reader finds something wrong so I can fix it. Um, yeah this whole story is completely absurd. 1) Cubans and Mexicans don't get along. Mexicans think that Cubans are stuck up. Cubans think that Mexicans are illegal wetbacks and don't come here through the right process. This isn't true for everyone, obviously. 2) The dicks are way too big. I mean, come on. 8 inches is already pretty long. 3) These guys are way too hot to begin with. 4) What are the chances that a hot new guy's mom actually works in another hot but insecure guy's mom's law firm? Nada, zip, zero. 5) What are the chances that said insecure yet hot guy gets picked up by a famous model? Who has a crush on him and is secretly insecure and lonely? Also nada, zip, zilch, zed. The list could go on, and on, and on into infinity! I hadn't really thought specifically about the emotional development. Fico was supposed to be really stunned by the development of Luke being bi, so he didn't even try to kiss Luke back. And the kiss is being saved for next time to keep you interested. Or annoyed or both . I asked TRUgrit for feedback but she was too busy to get back to me. So good thing I have you! Should I rewrite it do you think? I don't really know what to change. I think Fico is like this guy that hasn't dealt with his dad's death or his mom kicking him out at all. He just hides his pain and thinks that's enough. So when Luke says he's bi, it's like this windfall they he's so grateful for, but scared of at the same time. All he can do is cry because he has all these unshed tears for his dad and mom. He doesn't really know how to connect with someone, all he has is this huge hole inside him that he wants to fill with a boyfriend. But what he really needs is family. Which is where Joaco comes in. Joaco was more of a father figure to him, and the loss of that, or the apparent loss of that, was the most devastating part of the previous night. Part of his memory loss is because he simply can't process it, like PTSD. He unconsciously blocked all that out because it was just too much to bear. In the next chapter, he'll deal with it when he and Joaco get in a fight. That's when all shit gets laid on the table. I write this story from the perspective of Fico, so you don't get to see things happen to other characters until after the fact. I think you forgot that at the time of Fico leaving, his friends were upstairs so they didn't actually see him go. Only Luke saw it. About 40 minutes passed from the time he left the loft and the time he went to the hospital, so it's plausible that kids during a party don't even notice their friend is AWOL until the next morning, especially if they got drunk. If you know high school kids like I do, they will somehow get a hold of booze in a household and sneak it to their friends in plastic cups so it looks like any old Coke (Okay I might have done that once or twice in my time). When he woke up, Fico deliberately didn't check his messages b/c he was scared. And he was unconscious for most of the time in the hospital. But he actually has a ton messages! See ch 13 . Yeah a couple of his non-hungover friends are in the waiting room sitting awkwardly wondering if he still has a dick to pee with. LOL. Usually hospitals here have pretty strict visiting hours, so people can't just sit in the room doodling or whatever waiting for their friends to wake up. They have to sit in the waiting room for hours doing nothing but stewing in their own anxiety. It sucks. So after a couple hours, you're like, "Fuck it, I'm going home. Call me when he wakes up."Obviously Luke has pressured the nurse into letting him stay, but it's rare for doctors to let anyone except for someone's immediate family see them after surgery, unless they ask specifically for them. I think it'd be weird to give someone roses and get well card if they had a Viagra problem but that's just me. It's not something you'd want to tweet about, "Hey man, hope your dick is better!" But that's kind of funny, I might add it to the next chapter! I really appreciate the review. I love the "wow this is great" reviews but prefer the constructive ones more .

I tend to read published slash because they're edited and tend to be higher quality - no offense to the amateur writers here! But there's no comparison to a professional with tons of practice. I list most of them on goodreads. I go for stuff with a good plot, not pure porn. My faves are: Special Forces: Soldiers by Aleksandr Voinov and Marquesate <<< violent but touching, a bit on the long side I'll Be Your Drill, Soldier (okay dumb title but good book) by Crystal Rose <<<actually very sweet Stockholm Syndrome by Richard Rider the series: Warchild, Cagebird and Burndive by Karin Lowachee Special Delivery and it's sequel, Double Blind by Heidi Cullinan <<< really really enjoyable books! Scrap Metal by Harper Fox, and most others by Harper Fox <<< so sweet and romantic Hot Head by Damon Suede <<< also a really enjoyable read Red Skies by Joanne Kells How to Save a Life by Sloan Parker <<<kind of scary but awesome and romantic Zero at the Bone by Jane Seville Bloodraven by PL Nunn <<<but that's a classic, right, everyone's read that! Basic Training by Marquesate Thinking Straight by Robin Reardon Crossing Borders by ZA Maxfield Captain's Surrender by Alex Beecroft Faith & Fidelity by Tere Michaels Open Cover Before Striking by Willa Okati State of Mind by Libby Drew To Catch A Fox by Justin Lovell Cherry Pie by Samantha Kane most every book by Ethan Day, his Sno Ho is soooooo hilarious The Tucker Springs series, like Dirty Laundry, etc. Simple Men by Eric Arvin ....and dozens others. I love to read! I'm reading Where You Are by JH Trumble right now and it is pretty good.

Remember Mona? I kind of skimmed through Loser, the errors did kind of bug me at first but after a while not as much. Is it complete yet? I downloaded 15 chapters. I don't like to read incomplete fics. Lol. Like mine.

@Lisa: Actually hypodermic needle gauge indicate thickness. They measure outer diameters, so the smaller the number, the thicker the needle. When I had my ears gauged (meaning the whole was widened), they used a 12-gauge needle. 18 and 19 are actually pretty thick. I'm assuming for Fico's character that he doesn't know much about insurance, since he's never had to pay for it, or any bills actually. Also, he didn't bring his wallet with him, just his keys and phone. Yeah, Luke is bi. More on that in upcoming chapters. We will see the introduction of his ex, which will complicate things considerably. I'm glad you liked the chapter, I was thinking maybe it sucked because there's not as many reviews as usual, and ppl are afraid to tell me its poorly written. I was reading the story all over again from the start last night on my phone and now my thumb hurts. Lol. I found like a mistake per chapter. I guess maybe others don't notice them, but they REALLY bug me. I tried to read Bad Repuation but I couldn't get into it. I've read Ch1 of Loser and it seems more interesting.

@blankiz: Yeah, there will be plenty of LukexFico moments in coming chapters. I think you and I are the only ones that actually liked Joaco! He is a bastard but he had a reason for that kissing episode, which will be revealed in the next chapter.

@wolfluv: Nice, Christ on a cracker lol . Well I got the whole Jesus Christ on toast thing because you can actually buy a Jesus Christ toaster, which is so funny. His name is Joaco, pronounced "Hwa-co" as Joaquin is pronounced "Hwa-keen". I'm so glad you liked this chapter, I wasn't sure if readers would be disappointed with the first romantic interaction between Fico and Luke.